*me, n my tangy orange hotaru~

2006-12-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

erm... this section is jus what i truthfully feel. and please, don't feel offended to wadeva i say. although the people i'll mention may not be the ones reading my blog anw. XD my advice is that u read sth else instead of this section, cos its just christina ranting out the selfish self of herself. XD

i dislike it.
i hate it.
yes, true that they came and enjoyed themselves.
but why didnt i go and meet them at expo hall 8??
why did i let them come in themselves??
bcos i didn't take this step by coming out to meet them,
i lost the fruits of my labour.

if i were to die today,
and meet god in heaven.
and god were to ask me,
'dear christina, why isn't there a single soul saved under your evangelism?'
it.. it'll be so superficial if i had said 'oh, i did call them. but another cell group took them away.'
or sth like that.

i knw it sounds really selfish.
but they are the results of my hard work and efforts!
if only they wld knw how much, how much,
bringing this ppl to church this christmas means to me.
bcos.. i havent brought a single soul to church since sec 3.
it took me loads of courage to even ask the councillors.
which in truth im very afraid to approach them abt inviting them.
becos they tease me about MY JESUS! /pif

pls w363. i knw im really silly today,
(plus sitong chided me for acting immature =P)
i knw im really childish.
but i was pretty upset.
but i hope i didnt pull down ur countenance *sheepish smile*
i love u guys still!! =3

and nevermind abt the letdown,
it won't stop me from praising god!
and letting more people know abt HIM!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!! XD

2006-09-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

new website at http://orqngefirefly.blogspot.com

do note: its orange spelled with a 'q'
maybe i'll explain someday y so XD

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
resurrection of everything paranoid =3

2006-09-12T19:39:00.000+08:00

this is outrageous.
this is the fact that EVERYONE keeps telling me recently.
tall girls always look big, however thin or fat they are.
they'll always be 'bigger' than those petite girls.

its saddening.
isn't that ostracism! OSTRACISM!!
i dun even knw how to reason my mind anymore.

i won't be in sch from 9am to 1130am tmr.
its too much.
okayy, check out what i ate today

0900 hours: chicken rice (ooh la la!) PLUS extra veggies from another stall >.<
1500: macaroni and cheesy hot dog
1900: sushii! (sorry mandy =X)

okay now it doesnt sound so bad on the blog.
but ask anyone.
i really mean ANYONE.
they'll alllll comment on the amount of food i can shove inside my stomach.
and you know whats the worse part?
i feel hungry all the time.
and i...

therefore tomorrow i shall make a trip to my doctky's XD
i wanna make sure theres nth in my stomach u see =3
complaining to mandy and crying to julie isn't going to help my appetite
maybe pills to curb my appetite
or maybe a shrink
or maybe i shld jus disappear.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
deadweight loss.

2006-09-08T23:36:00.000+08:00

overview: 2006

its been THAT long huh.
let me start from the minute i completed my o's.
well, i played. XD but most importantly, i went to china (seen in entries dec 2005)
then.. all the stuff abt IFS T.Monkey =3

January 2006
Halloa folkies!
i appealed with success to JJC!
and wow... their orientation is like... *whistle*
(I love OG13!!! ^^)
makes me feel like i can stay in jj forever XD
and my first 3 months class (06S23) rocks my socks! XD

February - March 2006
i signed up as OGL for Orientation2 (O2)
and was selected into a particular group
Shadows.
From henceforth, my life was different.
And i nv felt so close to a group before.
Naturally it was painful to part and 'disband' Shadows.

April 2006
Here I am.
back in jjc, after the o2 fiasco. XD

and i gtg sleepp..
XD gdnite bubadeeees ^^

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
halfway done.

2006-09-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

test...

oh my gosh, i get to blog again! XD
yep, im still alive =3
and i got a keyboard (so i cant complain)
im at my friend's AMANDAS house, so i shall make a 'small' entry
so the big thing comes next entry?

im now at my friend amanda's house,
doin PW (on marriage XD)
and we were scrutinising the booklets and magazines provided by SDU
and amanda questioned aloud 'what if the girls end up liking the same guy?'
i replied (this is for all econs students XD), 'one girl prevails the whole market'
i need to study properly.. =3

... fine. i'll properly fill u guys in when im home okay??
i do miss tellin everyone wad im doin =3

here. WEIRD QUESTION OF THE DAY!!!
well, more like month now.
so.. Weird question of August:
What is the one cartoon that you wish it'll never end?
'Captain Planet!!!'
that seems like the one answer from all.

its soo boring if no one answers my questions =3

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
revival of the queen! ^^

2006-02-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

lost in u alone... is where i wanna be..

seein response in my tag board, i shall blog~
but short one (cos my keybrd spoil)

yesyes, im havin fun in jj~
in a sense i still do miss fmss...
in jj u havent made close frens to share things of e heart w...
and actually i have been reflecting (yes fairsians, miss lim word)
abt how ive doin...
n i realised a lot tt i bet no one but god knws..
like... nvm. its secret between me, god n hattyy... =p

ah wow! i gtg! byee peeps! dun wry too much abt o's resultss =)

2006-01-23T17:19:00.000+08:00

head, heart and hand we offer, tt none will fail the test.
plus ultra leads us further... until we are the best XD

wow... been long since i wrote eh?
haha, things are startin to fill my life (ignorin the newest pet ive jus accquired! XD)
its becomin hard to even catch up with hatty.
n i was thinkin if i shld stop bloggin alr.
i mean, bloggin is my preference.
but hatty is like... compulsory!
no one would jus not talk to a fren tt u 2 have gone thru 6 years of frenship, jus bcos of 'oh, i was sorta busy.'
i mean, hatty was really someone who listened to me all way thru.
she knws me inside (tho god knws me inside out)
i stimes jus cannot imagine life without her.
okok, i sound lesbian now. so i shall stop.

i told manu abt me wantin to stop bloggin.
n she said 'really? tts too bad, ur blog entries r kinda interesting'
...
i will reconsider stoppin this blog XD

haha, as usual.. millions of things to tell u ppl!
but.. another time?
i gtg shower, n then head towards my tuition teachers house.
not tt i need tuition (for now)
i want a quiet environment, free frm the computer...

arghh... i got this new word tt i keep sayin...
so like if i found out tt we are runnin 3 km for PE again,
i'll scream 'no! 3km? gosh! SACRILEGE!'
n truth is, i dunno wad does sacrilege means...
=x

i got weird question of the day!
wad is ur ideal world like?
the most common answer i got frm jj ppl are
'free food tt doesnt make u fat!' XD
go figure.

my weird questions r gettin less weird though, duncha think?

words of the paranoid queen.
a world where we r ourselves, not wad ppl want us to be.
tts my ideal world.

2005-12-29T09:46:00.000+08:00

(written on 25th dec)

im dreaming of a white christmas...

erm... but it never came >,<
though its even pretty cold in nanjing.
yeahh!! im back in nanjing.
n i owe u guys lotsa blog entries...

ok, erm...
i first went to beijing (had a very unforgettable experience)
then tianjin (to recuperate from my unforgettabe exp in beijing)
and lastly xi'an (terra cotta soldiers are sooo hot! *bwaha*)

ok, beijing.. went c forbidden city (n its other counterparts).
but many parts of the palace were closed for renovations (like hesheng's house >,<)
and i bought soooooo many pandas!!!
i hereby proclaim tt im as addicted to pandas as karolynn is addicted to tiggers
*bwaha*

then we went great wall of china (camelssssss!!!!!!!!)
n then erm... tt unforgettable experience happened (which i will post later)

Off to tianjin we went next, since theres's nth much over there, i was in the hotel recuperating from beijing.
the hotel is soooooooooooooooo big.
the room can literally 20 ppl, in which 8 ppl can sleep in one room comfortably.

and finally, plane to xi'an. i went to look at the temple (called da en shi)
in which sanzo (from xi you ji- journey to the west) spent his latter days in tt temple translating the sutras.
n also, rmb the chinese sayin 'it is better to save a person's life than to build a 7 storey pagoda"?
the pagoda is in tt temple =))
nothing of much interest to me abt the sutras.
the public square behind the temple though, is very big, n refreshin to be in.
so beautiful... n i caught myself thinkin 'if only aki is here...'
argh... i can jus asura (or in non ro terms, 'phoenix punch') myself... >,<

aki is this guy tt i met on ro.
tt guy a bit funny lar, ask me marry him the second day we met (YES! RO GUYS R DESPOOOOOOO!!!!)
oh ya, he's nice person to talk to, but y am i thinkin of him???
i knw for sure tt ive gotten quite over the guy i was raving about one month ago....
but y aki? ....
mus be cos i spent too much time with him in ro.
ahh well... superficial feelings.
when school reopens, im gonna go gushin over another guy (for sure!)

oh ya, reminds me.
i was posted to pioneer jc.
yes, was.
i appealed to jjc.
n got in.
amazing eh?
so to those ppl who are also in jjc,
im here to irritate u for another 2 years!!! *bwaha* XD

i tell u.
in beijing, every single food seemed so foreign lor.
(n tastes weird... SORRY AINAN!!! >,<)
at this point of time i say *raising wine glass*
cheers to coca cola being an inernational product!!!!!!!!
i miss hainan chicken rice~~

arghh, this place is soooo dry!
i got static 7 times a day!
i got so pissed off when i got static from the running water.
this IS the last straw!!!
*wrap hand with cloth*

oh ya, i tried fried scorpions!! ^^
sounds scary rite? but actually it tastes nice.
reeally good.
like fried fish. XD
i took pic. show u guys when im back in singy.
There's also, fried cocoons, locusts, cicadas, seahorses etc...
dun worry karo, there wasnt fried snails yet.
i said yet.
and those ppl there got glib tongue lor.
i asked them 'since i got 2 sticks of scorpions (6 in total. i only ate 2. my father ate the rest), can i take a picture?"
and they actually said, 'can, u so pretty, dun buy oso can take!!'
arghh.... im drowning in honey.
not even the despo ppl in ro have gotten so capable of saying such glib things
(aki, u seeing this???)

also, thnx to the people who smsed me xmas n bdae
u ppl have no idea how much they mean to me =))
cos i knw u guys smsed me when u knw very well its 50 cents per sms.
to those who dunno, at least let me assume!, =))
sooo i thank u guys, really.
to the people who smsed *raise wine glass again*
kannpaaiiiiiii!!! (er... tts jap)
cheeeeeeerrrsss!

words of a paranoid queen.
more entries to read!!!!!
scroolllll downn!!!

2005-12-29T09:39:00.000+08:00

(happened on 18th dec)

Rating: PG (XD)

it started simple with one sentence.
she ate too much meat.
almost embarrassing to say.
she felt bloated and her stomach was aching.
she cringed as she rmbed her sister sayin again n again 'gluttony is sin'
she squeezed her eyes shut as her parents brought her back to the beijing hotel room.
she laid on the bed, wishin the pain to go away.
her mother intervened and insisted tt she walk arnd.
after walking around, she decided.
if mr stomach isnt goin to take in all the meeaty nutrients, she'll have to gorge out wadeva it is tt is makin her uncomfortable.

but... how do one throw up?
it has been long since she vomitted.
ah well, she mused as she stood in the bathroom.
*cough*cough* n everything came out.
sooo.... for 1 hour the toilet was not left alone.
7 times she threw up, n her throat is almost upside down.
she havent properly drank one cup of water, she's dyin for water, and was denied it.
for fear tt it'll induce her to throw up more.

she sat on the toilet bowl.
this is much terrible than i thought.
She thought to herself miserably.
my stomach felt a little better, but it isn't doing much justice considering i puked 7 times. plus, i got a headache now.
She laid her head on the bathroom table and closed her eyes.

i want to go home.

when she woke up, she found herself on the bed.
her parents was wiping the cold sweat off her face, rantin on abt how relieved they r.
'the ambulance is here' 'do u need a wheelchair?'
voices rose and she opened her eyes.
she had fainted. she figured out.
how, she dunno.
all she knw is tt she is still darn thirsty, feverish and she cldnt move.
it was when she sat on the wheelchair when she realised tt she didnt have energy to move as and how she liked.

on the way to the hospital, she wondered many things.
y must this happen away from singapore?
no one in singapore knows abt me.
who has prayed for me tonight?
did god planned all this to end bad or good?

... am i goin to see god now?

the last question amazingly soothed her a lot.
but there was a voice tt said, 'stupid girl, u wont die this year. i promise u tt.'

everyone told her tt the injection to retrieve blood was painful.
and tt bein on feeder hurts a lot.
errr.... not really?
she mused as she looked at the plastic bags.

and finally, at 6 am, she was awaken by her parents.
she was discharged.
they r goin to rush to tianjin by taxi late morning.
she looked at the sores on the back of her right hand n her forearm.
it is over.

words of the paranoid queen.
this incident wasnt paranoid to her at all.

P.S: at least i got one consolation of the whole thing.
the guy who pushed me on the wheelchair is soooooo cute!
(he pushed me on the wheelchair down frm the hotel room to the waitin taxi when we went to tianjin)

2005-12-29T09:33:00.000+08:00

(writen on 12th dec)

long ago, and though so far away
i fell in love with you
before the second show
your guitar, it felt so sweet to me
but you aren't really
it's just the radio

don't you remember you tell me you love me baby
you said you'll be coming back to play again baby
baby baby baby baby oh baby
i love you, i do...

i love this song.. but i nv got to really knw the title of the song
if u guys knw do tell me k?

ahh i knw its been another neglecting of the blog..
ro's fault=))
who asked me to be able to make frens there??

really. im enjoyin the frens tt ive made in there.
so many different ppl tt i meet everyday.
n then so many ppl i owe them millions (millions of gratitude & ro money, the zeny)
but no matter... we can talk abt tt latz... this is my non-ro entry =))

china advertisement is sooo funny!im givin u one example
herbal essence.
the story is of cinderella. she went to the ball n the prince fell in love with her (n her silky hair)but like we all knw the story. blah blah clock struck 12 blah blah glass slipper blah blah...
but in the end the prince found her. not cos of the glass slipper. yep, slap ur foreheads.
its cos of her silky hair
lame rite? -_-
but i still think its creative. =))

ive been watchin the disney cartoons in china
the earlier ones =))
cinderella, sleepin beauty (aurora), snow white, aladdin
beauty n the beast watched last year, stll rmb now needa get little mermaid =))
aft watchin the princess stories, i have concluded things...

1: all the princesses sing like crazy. esp cinderella, aurora, snowwhite, ariel n belle. jasmine not really (i think aladdin n genie sing more than her)

2: i think aurora (aka sleepin beauty) is the most prettiest. really.

3: and i think snow white is the ugliest n most irritating charc of all. (to think im snow white >,<)

haiz... u knw, i miss singy a lot.
a lot a lot...
i mean, china is fun.
everyday i wake to eat all sorts of glorious things ^^
and then talk to the ppl in hotel (the receptionists n waitresses so frenly =))
i breathe in cold air, n choke at the polluted environment arnd.
i love china. i really do.
(ahhh at this point of time im hearin my favourite background music in RO..
i wan playyyy... but cannot....
today i 'chiong' 7.5 hours of ro straight *evil grin*

i do love china. but... its jus not singyy...
i can give up 0 deg for 30 deg anytime. =))
i miss the ppl in singy...

speakin of eatin in china..
its a funny affair.
i shall describe it soon. first, summarise it within 10 words!
tedious cos its jus like exercisin, bloated, interesting nevertheless =))
hey, no one said it has to be in perfect grammar =)

the appetiser, matire'd...
5 to 6 cold dishes up on the table. >,<
cold dishes... u knw wad i mean rite?
chili, duck slices (yes, duck slices for appetisers... n... wad bird flu?),
preserved egg, carrot slices... etc etc

then this is when the 'exercising' begin.
we toast.
again.
n again.
n again.
n again.
n again.
n again.
stand up, sit down.
stand up, sit down.
stand up, sit down.
see wad i mean? exercise!!
so tiring...
it continues till the end of the dinner btw.

then main course.veg, 2 kinds of soup, fish, mutton, beef, steamed egg, veg, tofu, fish...yes, meanwhile still toastin..then we eat the rice. (yep, aft all has been served)
as for me, i ate my share of rice. b4 all the dishes are served, i was fulll. aft rice (more toastin), we finally get our dessert, fruit.>,<
then, the tiring procedure ends.

the hotel manager is a fren of my dad's.
so we get to be treated abt 3-5 times a week.
then my dad's business frens insist on treatin us lunch/dinner.
so... yeah.
this procedure repeats itself everyday.
(oh my goodness... im sooo gonna b fat..)

off to next topic!u knw tt uve grown up when:

ppl in ur dad's office call u 'miss chiang' instead of 'xiao mei mei'
i feel so weird whenever ppl call me 'miss chiang, do wear more clothes or u'll catch a cold' instead of the usual 'xiao mei mei, come, put on this jacket.' then everywhere, 'miss chiang, ur lunnch is here. u can get off ur online game n eat'. opps, i let slip of wad ive been doin in my dads office... where the computers are... *evil laughter*

u knw tt uve grown up when:

u feel like singing nursery songs...
hey it makes sense.. if ure still a kid u wont feel like singin kiddish songs. u ARE singing them!~

u def knw tt uve grown up when:

guys in the streets start givin u glances. then again, these ppl glance at everyone... -_-. yeah i knw... im paranoid... but tt doesnt mean they r not lookin at me!! =)

words of the paranoid queen.
they're lookin at me! =P

2005-12-29T09:24:00.000+08:00

People!
today (28.12.2005) is the 3th day of christmas!
as such, i wanna sing to u ppl "the 12 days of maths christmas"!
dun ask me why its maths... i jus well... thought of it...
ok! starto!

on the first day of christmas my true love gave to me
a fibbonachi in a pear tree

on the second day of christmas my true love gave to me
2 compasses
and a fibbonachi in a pear tree

on the third day of christmas my true love gave to me
3 set squares
2 compasses
and a fibbonachi in a pear tree

and after that well... just read my blog to knw the rest of the lyrics! XD

29th dec will be the last time im bloggin
wait wait... i mean, it will be the last time im bloggin... b4 goin back to singypore!
though im still gonna be online on friday, i'll be playin ro XD
gomennasai minna san!!

my father has set his verdict to me
no ro when i get back to singypore!!!
nuuuuu... ahh well, he actually meant 'no manga, no anime, no ro etc etc etc...'
but i'll still watch XD
however, ppl say jc1 is always 'honeymoon year'
knwin myself, i'll be playin like crazy for the whole of 2006
so i have to control myself in terms of ro playin, manga readin, anime watchin.
i dunno if tt includes fanfiction writing, manga drawing.
but my father has insisted tt i start readin chinese books!!
arghh!!

im gonna start readin simple.
like go home n read 'tang shi 300 shou' ('300 tang poems')
tt shld be light enough for me b4 torturin myself with 'shui hu zhuan', 'xi you ji', 'sun zi bing fa' etc
XO kyaaaahhhhhh!
im soooo gonna die of chinese!!

ive been playin harry potter n the philsopher's stone when im not online.
lemme tell u, considering the number of spells to learn, the monsters tt take away ur bertie bott's every flavour beans (darn those gnomes), n now im tryin to escape frm filch...
readin the book is a much safer n more convenient choice. XD

ahh well, next time we meet, its in singapore!
i am suddenly reminded of some lyrics. it goes:

loneliness... is such a sad thing.
and i can hardly wait, to be with u again.

ive went thru a lot of emotions during my china trip.
in which if i write it down here, it wld probably cause a lot of discomfort n much scoffing.
so i have to tell them all to my trustworthy hatty ^^

words of the paranoid queen.
kyahhh!!! i miss my frenssss!!!

2005-12-29T09:19:00.000+08:00

the 4th day of christmas!

on the fourth day of christmas my true love gave to me
4 problem sums
3 set squares
2 compasses
and a fibbonachi in a pear tree

my mom set HER verdict.
its super contradicting to my dads verdict.
while my dad allows me to explore my interests (excludin RO)
my moms verdict is this: no RO anymore.
other than tt, no more of those things tt can destroy my studies.
erm... fyi. it means everything?
the only tt she probably wont disallow (for now) is dance.
and classes start in may.

in fact, if i dun do sth fast.
she isnt goin to let me touch the com when im back in singapore.
i mean frm 1st jan till sch starts.
seriously, i have no idea when i am in RO again.

compared to my mum, i prefer to stick to my dads verdict.
at least im allowed to read, write, draw etc etc
but too bad. i am painfully reminded tt its gonna be my mom in the house, not my dad.
soooo... arghh!!!!

for the first 3 months i have to prove myself tt i can juggle my leisure n my studies
(sth in truth, ive nv done) (maybe tts y my mom wants to control my timetable)
and her reason for doin this is plain simple.
'i don't want to end up with 3 daughters who've nv been to university.'
while it seems for my own good... there's more to it tt meets the eye.

ppl say tt jc1 is 'honeymoon year'
liars.
to me, jc1 (plus jc2 eventually) seems like o levels all over again.
a much harder n tougher version of o levels.
at least i rmb for the first few months of year 2005 im allowed to watch dvds XD

at first, when o's are over,
i tot tt until school starts in 2006, i can do wadeva i want.
without stress.
wrong.
almost everyday im constantly reminded of my embarassing results in prelims,
abt how well i will do if i concentrate on my studies as much as i concentrate on RO. XD
and how much harder i need to study.
yeah yeah i knw.
its for my own good.
but i hardly (i did, but seldom) felt the pressure off my back.
now, as i meet 2006... the pressure adds on.

words of a paranoid queen
see u in singapore.
where everything starts again.

2005-12-07T09:39:00.000+08:00

whoever invented teppanyaki is really a genius!
i mean, the food is good, the guests have extra person (the tepp master) to talk to, the heat coming from the hot plate is glorious (though not so glorious in singapore) etc etc etc.
but the best part of it is that if the guests run out of things to say, they can just stare at the teppanyaki master whippin up their food..
such an example like this:

Paranoidqueen's imagination run wild...

girl: boy, we've been together for 1 month, but i think that our personalities just dun match...
boy: yeah, i guess we have to..

at this point of time, it mus be very awkward to bring up the topic on breakin up, therefore... boy n girl stare at the teppanyaki sizzling...
im bein lame.

arghh!!! my face is crackin up bcos of the coolddddd!!!
arghhh!!! moisturiser!!
... lets jus move on...

china's adverytisement is sooo funny!
there's one herbal essence advertisement.
the story of cinderella.
the prince fell in love with her glorious hair, but as we knw the story, the clock struck 12 n she left, leavin the glass slipper behind.
the prince was determined n went arnd the whole city lookin for the girl who can fit her foot into the shoe...
but in the end, the prince found the girl w/o even needin the shoe.
how?
the hair... -_-

word of the paranoid queen.
its RO time, baby! ^^

2005-12-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

haiz..
this is meant to be the entry filled with acRO.
but i recieved news.
im supposedly to stay here in china till 30th dec rite?
but bcos my parents wants to have a company dinner at the end of the year.
im leavin china on the 1st of january... 2 pm... >,<

i know im selfish in feelin appalled by this.
i knw tt this is the best time for me to spend time with my father (finally!)
and totally very evil.
but pls think this for my sake.
its not fun staying in china without anyone to talk to except ur parents.
the youngest accquaintance ive met (other than my ex tenant miki) is wad? 29 years old?
pathetic...
im spending my bdae (which is today btw -_-), christmas AND countdown in china.
sry frens, in fact i cant even spend new year with u guys.
i'll reach singy in the evening. 7 pm maybe.
will get info from my parents.

theres this thing i wanna say jus now...
as in how i felt abt stayin in china till 1st jan.
but as i was writing tt phrase out, the com suddenly erased this draft.
>,<
so therefore i dun wanna say it =))
bwaha, the ppl in my dad's office very nice.
the guy (who is 29 years old >,<) also went along downloadin acRO for me.
but he dl soooo fast..
ive been downloading since 9am to 11 am.
n then the com started to conk out and all.
then he started dlin for me jus abt 10 mins ago.
and now both of us have downloaded 70+%...
i think he dled more % than me alr.. >,<

words of the paranoid queen.
ive lived life 16 years and 2 hours.

2005-12-05T11:09:00.000+08:00

hi ppl of all! ^^
im jus bein lame...
now in china, n its freakinnnnn colldddddddd
its abt wad? 0 degrees? minus 1 degrees later maybe...
its rather cold, considerin tt it was only 3 deg when i arrived..
now, the only source of heat (tt is actually recognisable) im gettin is from this laptop... *feels keyboard*

i mean come on, i dip my finger into hot tea.. to find out tt i cant even feel the heat of the tea.
N then this morning my mom was complainin tt her moisturiser has FROZEN. o.o
the twix chocolate i bought in the airport, tt wldve melted like crazy in singapore, is rather hard to bite in in china.
Get my point? we r livin in a fridge!!!

ive been in my dad's office since 9 in the mornin...
tryin get RO working (dl-in 31.5% ^^), n to my horror, i realised tt my dad's msn messenger is so stagnant, its not workin!!! -_- to top it up, he has no java software... tt means no hotmail!!! ohhh noooO!!! im cut off from societyyyy!

enough of the lame-ness, so anw, i have only this blog n acRO to communicate w u ppl...
(yay 34.8%)

which reminds me, tt day i recieved a present.
ok, i knw its normal.. i mean christmas is comin arnd..
but thing is, tt person didnt say who he is...
readin the letter he wrote, i can only infer these things..

1. he came here personally to deliver the letter (my maid took the letter while we were out)
2. he's a male (my maid said so)
3. he's younger than me (the letter he addressed me 'jie')
4. he's known me for 4 years (said so)
5. hes my neighbour?? ('let us be good neighbours')

my maid asked for his name, n he said he wrote it inside the bag
apparently i still dunno...
unless i knw someone whose chinese name is jing di
in which is 'jing tian (today)' tt 'jing'
WHOEVER GAVE THAT PRESENT OWN UP LARRRRRR!!!!
(yay 41.3%!)

but anw its very nice of him (whoever it was) to give me tt present
its a necklace... soo nice..
think it'll look great on my plain t-shirt...
(if i had one??!?!)
(yay 42.2%)

hmmm... the o's r over...
'he' still didnt give me tt answer.
i guess i nv will knw my answer.
which, at the same time, answers my question.
there ARE somethings in life tt we'll nv knw the reason behind.

as of which therefore, i give up on hoping for an answer.

okok, this is the non-RO filled entry...
hope u enjoyed it lots...
its only my second day here... nth much happened yet.
oh but i telll u, the guys in china r still very shuai!!
*drool*
(yay 46.1%)

rmb my ex-tenant miki?
i used to wonder how rich her family is.
now i know.
im here in nanjing, n jus heard tt her dad's company jus had one of the largest company dinners.. they invited mayors n all those VIP...
it even got onto the newspapers...
haha, but i doubt they're one of the richest...
in fact, chinese in china are now actually very very rich... o.o

ok spellin check...
sometimes its so cold i type things wrongly... >,<
at the same time i can waste time for the downloadin...
(yay its 48.8%!!!!)

words of a paranoid queen.
oh ya i jus rmbed.
happy bdae to me =p
n its now 49.1% complete!!! XD

2005-11-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

oh guess wad?
someone finally asked me to marry him!
haha, but nah, its not bloody..
its another of my guild mates
he seems a nice guy.. till i found out he's 'going to be 11'
darn! gen gap! no way!
haha, fun day.

oh btw... i wanna say sth...
actually, my fren asked me if i wanna take ballet with her.
okok, laugh.
but she was sayin tt maybe i can try it out.
while ure readin this, erase every single tip-toeing, leg-splittin girl images in ur mind...
its not really like tt... as how i saw in the class..
actually.. i was totally smitten away by the whole idea of their lines n techniques.
i actually felt like cryin...
NOT cos they danced so beautiful *sob* -___-
but cos i regret tt my mom nv brought me dancing...
i cld have found such joy in it...
i really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really....
want to join tt class...
but i wont be able to catch up.
their lines n techniques need lots of workin on...
its not goin to be easy...
i have to give up on it, its no choice...

i wanna dance...
to lose urself in the music.
to jus put ur whole passion into it.
is... speechless...

words of the paranoid queen.
dance away.

2005-11-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

10 minutes left, i told myself softly.
i stared at the same sentence on my chem paper
was sth like 'suggest why the speed of reaction in experiment 3 is initially faster than the other experiments'
how should i knw? idiot thing.
i looked in front. karolynn (with double 'n'!) was fiddling with her tie.
i looked around. i wont be seein this hall for long.
i (try to) looked sideways. yuen teck seems to be stoning.

'students, its 4 o clock u may stop writing'
'oh my goodness' was wad i said.
rather loudly actually. =)

its over.

***

yep, tts how my o's ended.
btw, tt question? i still left it blank.
how i knw y it is faster??
anw, its over and over!
but guess wad? my mom still doesnt allow me to stay overnight at ppl's hse.
looks like i cant exactly take over the world yet... =))

today today!
hehe... i went arnd taka today!
i wanna say sth now, u ppl will scream if u hear this.
if u dun wanna hear me say sth embarrassing, skip to next paragraph k?
okok im sayin now ah...
there's this bra soooooo cute!!!
the strap is halter and its very long!
so u can actually tie it arnd ur neck like a ribbon!!
soooo sweet! i absolutely love it lor!!!

okok im done with tt... =)
so anw, i went to rebond my hair!!
darn, its soo tiring! i forgot how tiring it was!
but anw, my hair looks more... manageable...
i doubt im able to tie it on wed...
heck lar.. =)))

hmmm... is tt all???
yeah...
my mind is on RO... =)))
ja ne!

words of a paranoid queen.
oh yeah... today got woe! =))
go and die there le! bye!

2005-11-17T20:29:00.000+08:00

would you marry me? honey?
now i say congrats
its jus this line: the language of magic!

soo cute! i love tt song!
anw... nth much to talk abt??

i finally felt stressed a few days ago lar!
i knw... only like wad?
a few more hours to the end of everything?
and then i feel stressed.. -_-
so i destressed today..
i chased my dog aichio, till HE was exhausted, n i wasnt!!!
bwahaha, he suck!!! gettin lazy!!!

words of the paranoid queen.
21 hours left to the end of everything
i only want to say this last thing.
PUT THE LIME IN THE COKE!!! =P

2005-11-16T18:25:00.000+08:00

The chorus of angels at the window is to you, just your ear playing tricks?
The voice saying "I love you, I love you"

i did physics paper one thinkin to myself 'wow, i can get 30+ for this paper (upon 40)'
and after paper 2, i thought, 'wow more, i can get 30+ for this paper, jus tt its upon 80...'
-__-

anw, lotsa things happened.
well, lets make this quick n painless for u guys k?
i finally downloaded acRO!
tts it! subject on RO gone!

okok, jus a gentle reminder.
if u guys r plannin to send me wadeva gifts on my bdae
do it b4 5th dec.
to those who have absolutely no idea wad im talkin abt,
then extra reminder. my bdae is within sometime
(cant be bothered to count yet)
im leavin for china on 4th dec. flight is at abt 7++am
wow, it wld be really nice to c ppl wakin up at unghastly hours like 5am
jus to send me off! bwaha!
but i'll b back on 30th dec...
i wont EVER miss dancin session during countdown in my nieghbourhood!
(unless tt place got dancing too!!! ^^)

ive got a great incentive to study n wait patiently for friday!!!
im goin to kino on monday!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!! ^^
i am granted (yes, granted) the permission of my mum's card!
bwaha, to clever ones u shld knw it means tt im allowed to spend as much as my mum allows!!
and hahahahahahah... alll the books n mangas are waitin out there, screamin 'bring me homeeee!!!"

so yeah.. tts abt tt... (hehe... anti-climax)
as o's are pressing on...
my brains started to crank up juices for even more stories...
argh... i wish tt someone cld invent this brain readin machine so tt it can jot down all my ideas in paper...
seriously... consider this...
i have abt 4 stories in fanfiction, to which one more wld be added soon...
i have 2 major stories to draw, 1 minor , and 2 other stories tt is on tentative...
plus all the subjects in my head,
its amzin how my brain can store so much information...
maybe tts y my grades arent as fantastic???

ahhh who cares? o's wld be over aft fri!
sooo if u see a particular girl screamin down orchard road
with hook earings and mini skirts...
welll, at least i give u permission to pretend not to knw me... =))

words of a paranoid queen
people!!! exactly 71 hours to end of o's!!!
pressssss on!!

2005-11-11T17:35:00.000+08:00

well, ignoring the fact tt i may not secure an a1 for my e maths and worrying abt my lit,
i wanna tell u sth i found out abt ro... =))))

my fren, who plays RO, is finely walking down the streets of RO one day
when this guy pm-ed (private messaged) her.
the last time i met this guy,
i was at her hse watching her play RO.
he kissed her (on RO lar!!) so many times lar!
and kena slapped back as many times =))
so anw, tt guy pm-ed her and said tt he loves her.

so she was telling me (more like screaming)
'why cant guys in thr real world be THAT straight-forward???'
of cos she rejected him lar (she's engaged...)
actually, to her, she is a little unpopular in the class?
so i guess when the guys in RO flock to her (i really mean FLOCK)
i think she enjoyed it quite well! =))
i dun blame her! neither do i think she's a flirt or wadeva u ppl nowadays can think.
after all, apart from joy joy lim (i didnt say lua!!!!)
all of us do enjoy a little attention now and then rite?? =))
dun deny.

tt makes me wonder abt online games.
everyone has been going on abt how bad online games are and all...
like how behind the computer screen
could be this old, pervertic, skin-wrinkled, 89 year old 'ah bei'
who chuckles evilly as he types 'im male, 18, and currently single'...
ah ah ah... perspective! (where did that come from? sounds familiar...)
not tt i disagree that online games do have their dark side of the society reflected??
(WAD AM I TALKING abt???)

but listen to this.
providing tt us innocent, naive, vunerable girls do not agree to meeting up with ppl,
maybe online games are a form of knowing people without looking at appearances.
in this swallow-minded society where appearances and money are the motivating sources,
maybe online games allow ppl who knw n judge a person properly w/o knwing how he looks like...
hmmm.... u think i analysed it ok???

words of a paranoid queen.
white feathers of an angel.
(dun ask me why i wrote tt)

2005-11-10T17:02:00.000+08:00

weird question of the day!!

ok lar, many of u ppl heard this b4… but I wanna say still!!

A, B, C are brothers who wanted to buy a TV costing $30.
see, $30 divide by 3 is $10 paid by each brother!
so down to the store they went, to find out in their horror,
that the TV was sold at a discount of… * counting * arghh… anw, its sold at $25 lar…
so they were horrified to see a $5 change back to them
(who wld be horrified to see discounts????)
$5 how to divide by 3???
so the shopkeeper (being ‘good’), told them tt they wld receive $3 change instead, for better dividing.
while he, (tt rotten, money-worshiper =P) take the remaining $2 as commission!
so A, B, C agreed.
so here’s the question!
if A, B, C received $1 each in return, it means that they paid $9 for the TV rite?
9 x 3 = 27
then, adding the $2 from the shopkeeper,
we get 27 + 2 = 29
so… where’s tt $1??
(remember? There’s $30 in the beginning! ^^)

to all those who are freaking out with my question,
dun worry. I can assure u tt such questions will not be asked tmr!
but well, I can’t guarantee tt they wld def not ask any TV questions…
maybe things like, find % increase! Hehe… good luck to all!
after tmr, we can scream ‘IT’S HIP TO DONATE!’
and chuck, down the box the books go! ^^

words of the paranoid queen.
another 8 more days! Go go! Jia you! =))

2005-11-09T19:22:00.000+08:00

yukanaide.

english was terrible. period.

words of a paranoid queen.
shortest entry ever! =))

2005-11-08T20:29:00.000+08:00

you make me feel like dancing
(gonna dance the night away!)

yay... this is my 102th entry!!
to think my 100th post HAD to be on my o levels!
oh ya, im leavin for china china soon!!!
i think from 4th dec to 30th!
i'll be back for countdown!!!
will miss u guys!
im bringin acRO there!!!!!!
my dad got lappie!! ^^
*bwaha*i can still get to spend christmas knowing bloody! =)))

short rite? its pathetic.
haha, the entry below is on RO.
figured tt separating it wld be better =))
darn, im addicted to the numa numa song!
to those who dunno tt songgo to macdonalds,
and stand there for half an hour!
u'll be bound to hear the ad for chicken little!

words of a paranoid queen.
numa numa numa eh~

2005-11-08T19:32:00.000+08:00

RO again!!
(to ppl who cant stand me talk abt ro,
jus ignore this post lar)

i havent tell u guys abt their jobs rite?
ok... there's a novice (in which everyone have to go thru)
and then if still like bein a novice u can be supernovice!! ^^
but tts lame =))
from novice go on to first job... then second job (a higher lvl of it)
then when u hit lvl 99, u rebirth yourself
(and become a novice AGAIN!!!! >,<) but when u hit jobs, u be a advanced job... and tts when u can go n boast arouund! =))) so the job series... (all start aft novice) swordsman -> knight -> lord knight
-> crusader -> paladin

acolyte -> priest -> high priest
-> monk -> champion (asuraaaaa~!!!)

magician -> wizard -> high wizard
-> sage -> professor

merchant -> blacksmith -> whitesmith
-> alchemist -> creator

archer -> hunter -> sniper
-> dancer/bard -> gypsy/clown (weird huh?)

thief -> assassin -> assassin cross
-> rogue -> stalker

and tt was crazy me on RO jobs!
im jus bored... tryin to download acRO
but i only downloaded wad? 0.1% since... 20 mintues ago???
oh my goodness!

ahh well... xiu is tryin to sabo meee!
she's goin to tell bloody tt im interested in him!!!
no!!!!!!!!
im soooo not goin on acRO by then!!
actually, i think at this rate
i guess i cant go eh??

yay, talk abt RO mad mutterings!
acRO ppl very frenly actually =))
let me tell u guys what happened while i was at xiu's hse watchin her play RO!

ok.. the last woe, xiu brought me in, we kind of alliance with her future husband's guild.
and b4 the empirium room (which by the way, is SWARMING with monsters!!!)
the guild leader said 'ok, i only have one thing to say. PUT THE LIME IN THE COKE!!!'
haha, those ppl are kinda crazy over lime coke! =)))

then, there's another one.
my co-guild leader (shinku^^) got her charc married to a bard (bluesaber i think^^)!
cos saber was sayin tt he'll only marry dancer,
they were like, 'really?!?'
so they got dancer meredy to meet him (who is actually oso in our guild)
so yeah, happy happy =))
their weddin was the first ive ever seen..

but there's sth tt happened...
cos RO charc r very much personalised...
so u dun get to see exact same charc..
well, we were shocked to see that this merchant (think its blitzer's fren???), who was actually wearing a mask, had the exact same face as the groom!
so they are like
judgemaster (tt merchant): the truth is shocking for all to hear *takes of mask* im ur twin brother
bluesaber: no! it cant be! but mom said...
judgemaster: the boogie man took me when i was one.

it was soooo funny! the fact tt they played along w/o any preparations!!
^^

i got to knw both shinku and saber slightly better later on today...
they r like seein my user 'orqangefirefly' (YES!!! ITS SPELLED WRONGLY!!!>,<)
shinku say she's applefirefly
and then saber say he blueberryfirefly
n xiu (aka beanie) say she beaniefirefly
hahaha so funnn!

ahh english!
going arnd to check ppl's blog! =)))

words of a paranoid queen.
i say put the lime in the coke!!!! ^^

2005-11-07T18:24:00.000+08:00

i like big butts and i cannot lie
u other brothers can't deny
tt when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist
n a round thang in your face u get sprung!

*'_'*
tt was the song to keep me up n going thruout the day!
well... to think that a few hours from now, every blog tt i visit wld have ravings abt the o levels today..
oh come on, how common can u get?
how shallow-minded can u get?
is the o's sooo impt as to talk abt it 24/7!?!?!

as for me!
... im no different! =P
so ignoring the second paragraph, let's start on the o levels 'analogy'!

emath awas generally fun (though i got kinda stumped by Q1b =P), but i felt tt it's harder the the prev years paper... ahh well, but other than tt, not bad, i guess?

then is the one tt everyone was complaining abt!
hehe... i saw sbq n yay! foreign talent!
felt so prelim-y!
but somehow i dunno how to phrase and everything..
i caught myself stoning 20 mintues into the pp!
(thinkin of the guildmember! =x)
dun ask me! i kept thinkin of the nickname everyone calls him as!
>.<
then comes seq...
and i thought, wow. venice DID come out.
everyone in 4C was practically swearin their lives on venice.
i looked at it. and i tot, die. i forgot to study the external factors of fall of venice!
the acronyms of external was W R S P C (war rising in SPC)
and the internal one was C U C O I I (copper cobalt iodide)
i was so caught up with the interanl one i forgot abt the external one!
so strikeee! off!
i dunno anything abt Q3 (vaguely)
so Q2 i did!
i thought part b)s were quite tricky...
gotta consider the consequences that resulted in it...

but anw! it ended well! =))
i get to throw my SS books into the big box of old textbks aft tt!
but too bad i didnt get to scream the words on the paper stuck above the box
"IT"S HIP TO DONATE YOUR TEXTBOOKS!!" =)

words of a paranoid queen.
i shld try tt on friday (emaths)

2005-11-06T17:13:00.000+08:00

kanashii...

oh wow, o's tmr! to think a few months ago, i cried myself to sleep saying, "jus another six more months..."
tonight i will cry myself to sleep saying "jus another six more hours..."

to think another 12 more days and all my wishes wld come true... (the things to do aft o's)
i can tell my mom 'i wanna be dictator of the world' and she wont say 'do ur o levels first...'
but im afraid that with all the freedom now, we ppl tend to start strayin...
with the fun and all, we can 'forget' to pray at night, read the bible etc...
so i am tellin u ppl jus b4 o's start... we wont be so 'oh yes i love u god!' durin the exams, and then aft tt its 'huh? wad god?' *sigh*
but the worst thing is tt we study for 4 years... and aft it, all we get is 1.5 months.. -_- not even 4 months... -__-
full metal alchemist's 'exact trade' wont work here =((

anw... i got more things to do after o's! so now the list is such:

Learn dance! (most prob latin tech)
Learn jap language
Clean up room and send empty tyses to my tuition teacher!
SO finally start on drawing my so-called manga!
Continue my fanfics!
Play RO!
Neopets? (ahh well, since eugene not playin he wont be pestering me to play =))
Still load up manga and anime! (my sis bought dn angel anime! ^ ^)
PS2!!!!!!!!!
Calculate phi to wad, 100 deci places? (yes! maths shall not be ignored!)
Study! (and yes! im still gonna study!)
Go out with friends
(new) SING KTV! (yay... im selecting 'lady marmalade', 'baby got back' etc etc... ^^)
Oh ya, attend a cosplay convention!! (woooohoo! maybe i should try and cosplay a sohee!!!)

i guess tts it for now... =)

*bwaha* i can go and blind myself reading 30+++ manga in one day
then my sis & i will go renting another 30+++ mangas the next day !
*shuang*
yes, finally the power of the p.queen is revealed!
i guess u guys wont be able to see me online
then again... maybe u guys will...
cos i'll be playin RO! =))

yay, on the happier note of RO,
no longer would i be huanted by running acolytes and charc who can solo guild war! =))i guess i needa explain rite?
u guys go check meanin of acoltye lar.. its in dictionary...
cos i can only heal (my fren set stats to priest's stats)
i am only useful for killin undead creatures...
but bcos my lvl is soooo low, i keep dying...

i have to go 'RUN ACO RUN!'
and my fren screams 'RUN U STUPID ACO!! RUN!!'
-_- things tt students do 24 hours before the o's... -_-

well... u knw abt the times when i rant abt how ppl can solo guild war...
aft tt i wld be used to all of it.. -___-
soon i wld be a monk... and cast 'asura strike'! (wooooo~)

ehehe... im interested in one of my guildmates leh... =P
he seems very nice leh...
but he doesnt talk to me much...
ah well... =)))
lets see how the paranoid queen deals with it...

oh ya, i wanna tell u guys abt woe!
okok, erm rmb i mentioned 'guild war'?
the name for it is woe (war of empirium)
u see, there are 5 castles in the RO world...
occupied by guilds lar..
so every week, at a fixed time,
the guilds (who had no castle) declare war on the 'castled' guilds...

but not easy u see... there are all sorts of monsters flocking PLUS that guild members..
when someone goes ALL the way in to whack this (moldy green) stone called the empirium,
the war is 'over' and the castle belongs to tt victorious guild..
but of cos, then the other guilds will start takin over...
all the fight for the castle... =))

anw, i went to see, as my fren's priest of cos!
i wld have died as an aco enterin the grounds...
darn, so fun! its the game of 'run!'
so best time for us to scream 'RUN PRISSY (priest) RUN!' ^^
*sigh* why am i explainin all this?

cos u guys dun play...
if i rant on abt woe u guys wont understand wad... =))
xiu says tt when o's are over they'll plan another woe...
darn... me as a lvl 50 aco...
i'll jus gloriously die! -___-

which reminds me, i got fanfic on RO!
hehe.. yay, tell u guys matbe another time...

i dreamt tt there's these monsterous female creatures tt attack whenever someone isn't attractive to them or talks... i dreamt tt fmss kena attacked by a horde of those stuff... the only person who was unaffected was... MARCUS LI!!! it's either he's quiet, or he's attractive.. (thinkin of time in prague when all the girls asked for his no ^^)
also dreamt tt my aco cld kill a wraith in 3 heals.. darn... im hoping too mich... =P

my goodness... has o's been destryin the way i look?
someone thought tt my 8-years-older-than-me sister is the one takin o's!!! *groan*

eugene finally noticed Samurai Deeper Kyo...
to think ihave been raving on and on about it!!!
>,<

oh yay. i found the meaning of 'paranoia'
it's a form of insanity characterised by fixed delusions... ^^
so u cant blame me if i say im paranoid =))

i wan ke you lun's 'ling' song! its the theme song of the drama ser 'MARS'
who got send meeee! ^^
i absolutely looove that song!
i was askin my mum what wld my eldest sis say if she sees me with ke you lun's CD
she said, 'go buy for wad? allan wld have given ur sis a free copy'
well.. i was jus wondering wad wld she do if she sees me supportin her fren's album...
laugh her head off n prob tell allan (aka ke you lun) =P

words of a paranoid queen.
oh... btw (writin at 8:25 pm)
24 hours from now? we wld be scribblin our math formulas away!
go go! jia you! ^^

2005-11-04T18:21:00.000+08:00

yay! this is the 98th blog entry!!!
^-^
ah well.. with 3 days left, bloggin shldnt be the thing in my head...

oh fine... back to RO.
=)))
im survivn ok i guess... =))
glast heim isnt so terrible aft all
its full of undead ppl...
im an acolyte *evil grin*
cast heal on them and *poof* there they go!
i cant kill the fly and the mimic. =((
healin them wont kill them =((

so i met this hunter guy (who got this lovely falcon)
so yay, i kill zombies (and some ghouls)
and he tackles the flies... =)
jus tt... erm... i dun like him =P
xiu was like, 'wooooh, potential husband!' (yes, u can marry in RO)
and i was thinking, 'NO WAY!'
yeah he's nice, but.. i rather knw ppl better..
haha, besides, he's 21 singyrean
communication prob...
besides, he gives me an idea of a flirt...
aiyah 4C, go play RO lar....
=(((
im declarin. i shall remain single in RO till... *trail off*
anw, if anyone says 'marry me?'
i'll reply 'but im an acolyte trainin to be a monk. monks cant marry rite???'

guess wad?
went dinner with gaelan (who suddenly disappeared like THAT), eugene and marcus..
they were talkin abt lekian and gu niang -_-
haha, miss u guys =)
anw...
MARCUS BOUGHT ME MY BDAE PRESSIE!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOSH!!!
7 BOOKS OF MANGA!!!
HE BETTER BE SHARIN WITH OTHER PPL!!!
yay... my first set of manga ^,^
but i got my mum to confiscate it...

ahh well..
oh wow, burst angel is startin. goin! bye!

2005-11-03T20:54:00.000+08:00

oh my, ragnarok online is so cute..
but i have been rather down on luck...
my fren's husband is a assassin cross,
who almost solo-ed a guild war... >.<
and then i met this crusader in my tuition class
who CAN solo a guild war.
btw, guild war means a GROUP of ppl fighting another GROUP of ppl
these guys are nuts to fight them all single-handedly...

yes, long time no talk
now i can talk... *bwaha*

i have stumbled upon my song book many times actually, n now i wanna talk abt it!
well... i read charmaine's first poem, n so i wanna declare tt 'yes! i used to compose songs!'
in pri 3? pri 4?around there, i started picking up the pen to write.
so anw, i was reading the songs i wrote.
songs of my emotions, frustrations, sadness, (many many) 'unrequited love'...

i used to think that my songs are crappy.
the tune is ok, but the lyrics suck!
now tt ive matured and looked at the book again, i concluded that it sux.
its worse than crappy! its rubbish!
but i thought that the later ones are normal. =)
not as fantastic as mika nakashima (miknak)
or avril lagvine, jay chou etc.
but well, presentable =)))
if u guys are in need of a good laugh, tell me =)))
but oh ya, there's this song i wrote in sec 2
after our choir trip in prague (2002)
and yeah, since marcus shld be the only one readin my blog who knows about prague,
i dedi this song to him (dun laugh so hard to fall off the chair ok???)

***

victorian houses lined up on the street
old-fashioned traffic like electric trams
roaming across this town
a place where different snowflakes fall and sway
it's a scene oh a beautiful scene
of this little town

we, as a choir, rise up to the stage and sing
underneath the wooden ceilings
with beautiful pictures on the walls
we sang our different pieces
(ok, this part is crappy)
with our different voices
the judges were shocked, astonished.
they stood on the tables and danced
(darn, i jus declared to the whole world my songs are childish)

we want to be your storyteller
as you are our audience
we wanna tell you our crazy adventure
in this little town
oh prague it's a wonderful place
so small, so peaceful, so quiet
(never got to end the chorus =P)

theatres i count 1,2,3
scattered over across this town of little prague
i hop on the bus and looked out of the window
(yep, nv got to finish it)

darn, go ahead and laugh....
i even had to re-write some parts
so ure readin the non-original =)))

***

okay! with all the laughin gone, let's continue!
i got my answer on the question
'to care for someone who doesnt care for the world... is it worth it?'
someone said to me, 'frustrations are birthed when you care for a man's problems more than he cares them himself...'
so yeah, i got my answer... =)

oh ya. i once read this book (in chinese... my first chinese book!)
and it have this 'poem' like thingy of logic...
lemme translate it..

if i had a million dollars, i would buy a house.
do i have one million dollars? no.
therefore i cannot buy a house.

if i had wings, i would fly.
do i have wings? no.
therefore i cannot fly.

if all the water in the pacific ocean is poured out,
it wouldn't extinguish the firey love i have for you.
can all the water in the pacific ocean be poured out? no.
therefore i do not love you.

so i decided to rewrite it.. hmmm.. almost cracked my brains thinkin,
so here it is!

if i have but one day to be your girlfren,
i will hug you tight, and tell you that 'you're not alone, cos im with you.'
do i have a day to be your girlfren? i don't.
therefore i can never tell you that u're not alone.
(and darn! i cant eat 'your' tofu! =P)

if i can stop time, i'll let it stand whenever you smile at me.
can i stop time? i can't.
therefore i have to let your smile fade away...

until someone comes to take my heart away, it will always belong to you.
has anyone come to take my heart away? no one has.
therefore... it belongs to you. always.

2005-10-31T22:03:00.000+08:00

ok! since my mum n sis are here,
i cant continue readin fma.. =P
so i shall write!

Things to do after o's!!!

Learn dance! (yay!)
Jap language? (if i can get ppl to join me)
Clean up my room and send empty tys-es to my tuition teacher!
FINALLY start on drawing my so-called manga! (yay, oli will join me!)
(Also finally!) Continue my fanfiction!!!
Play Ragnarok Online! (hey, i wanna live to 80 n tell my grand children without regrets tt i played mmorpg!)
Play neopets! (jus to shut eugene up =P)
Load up on manga and anime!!! (keep them coming!!!!)
Calculate phi!!!! (things tt bored students do)
Buy PS2 (yes!!!! no stoppin me!!!)
With that, get KINGDOM HEARTS!!!!!!!! (i wonder if i can smuggle them to china for chinese new year??)
(Last one, i knw u guys will scream) study. (i mean hey, jus cos o's will be over doesnt mean i can be stupid now rite???)

tt concludes the things i wanna do... oh ya... last thing.

go out with frens (sorry!!! ^.^)

2005-10-31T20:51:00.000+08:00

*sigh*
halloweeny!
lemme imitate arthur n say this:
exactly one week to o levels!
i say 'hocus pocus'
nono! i mean 'focus focus!'
=))
i thought it was very cute
=P

yay... reading full metal alchemist manga...
*bliss*
and there are millions of other stuff not mentioned...
like wad i wanna do aft o's...
will do so when i get bored k? =)

words of a paranoid queen.
edward elric is SOOOO shuai! ^^

2005-10-29T21:33:00.000+08:00

oh my.. i gettin interested in ro!!!
hmm... everything after o's...
i think i need to start compiling things to do aft o's
so i dun have to forget what to do...

oh ya. i decided.
if taiwan dun have their own published version of 'kingdom hearts'
i shall swallow my pride and buy the english 'kingdom hearts'!!!
but i hope chuang yi DOES complete publishin the whole thing!!
>,<

words of a paranoid queen.
usually she has millions to say,
but distractions always allow her to forget all tt she wanna say

2005-10-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

to care for someone who doesn't care for anything in this world.
is it worth it?

2005-10-27T19:33:00.000+08:00

tada kimi wo aishiteru
kokoro kara sou omotta

physics prac?
terrible.
to start it off, i dropped my S-hook off the table.
i could've jus picked it up rite?
piece of cake!
wrong-o!
it fell and landed on the floor beside eugene's bench!
if i went to pick up, i can be accused of cheating!!!
arghhh
so had to ask help...
and latz on the male examiner came to my bench to look at my index number!
oh no!!!! he's markin me off!!
nooooooo~

then there's the aparatus with the thermometer reading facing in front!
had to adjust it (n losing the real postion of the thermometer)
and then.. i timed the thing in 25 secs instead of 30 secs...
and worse thing is, i forgot to add negative sign to gradient!!!
*bang head against wall*

why no one takes me seriously when i tell them not to bully marcus??
he is my most treasured guy fren...
even marcus himself was like 'oh okay'
-_________-

and tt eugene lar!
he did what every typical guy would do if they see a drawing of a girl.
draw boobs.
but this idiot doesnt do what every typical guy would do if the 'draw'er is pissed.
say sorry!
argh...
he's not replyin.
asking him, he says tt his phone is in locker.
well, so now its either he decided to throw it into the ocean,
or he's plain not replyin.

words of a paranoid queen.
i ask again.
to care for someone who doesn't care for anything in this world.
is it worth it?

2005-10-26T11:00:00.000+08:00

the feeling of panic, the tears that surfaced was hastily wiped away as miss thio told us to go to the labs.
the realisation that the o level period have finally started hit me. (yes, finallyyyy!!!)
all the aloofness, the bochap-ness disappeared instantaneously.
everyone was standing up, and i realised that my bag was two tables away from where i was squatting.
standing up, i was amazed that my legs almost turned jelly.
i didn't even dare speak.
(well, to those who don't believe that, its just because you guys didnt talk to me while making our way down to the labs)

i felt so oppressed, like every move i make is being watched by the examiners.
knowing that he's somewhere near me (coincidentally...) didnt help (at all)
examiner said 'you may begin'
and everyone relapsed into silence.
every instruction given was read again and again.
silly me couldnt get everything into my head.
literally had to re-read the instructions three times.
everyone had started pouring P into their test-tubes.
honestly, if i hadn't seen the people pouring P into a test-tube,
i would have poured the sodium hydroxide (its nice to write NaOH here =)) and etc etc into the big bottle of P...
im not joking...
sighing in relief, and thanking god for the reminder, i filled P into a test-tube.
at the same time, ignoring the fact that my hands were shaking and shaking my head vigourously, trying to forget that i once spilled a sample in my prelims.
had to go and ask mrs ang for another bottle of R then.

everything turned alright.
i started gaining confidence and so.
and i realised that it's the last time we are in fairfield's chemistry labs for practical.
to some of us, the next time we hold a copper (II) sulphate bottle or a burette is when we enter JC and (hopefully) get chemistry as our sciences.
to some of us, the next time we get to look at the bright, glaring yellow ppt of lead iodide or play with the water hose is... never?
worse thing is, i have been in the labs for 4 years.
i never knew what would happen if i poured conc HCl on people.
and there are millions of nice nice chemicals that the school never bring out for us to play lor!
nostalgic... nostalgic indeed.

(argh... enough with nice nice english)
chem prac finally ended at 1525. everyone stopped their work.
well, almost everyone. =)
examiner had to tell chih-fai to stop testin for hydrogen gas.
all of us filed out of the labs.
and as usual, e hot topic was, 'how's ur paper?'
then there was a big hoo-ha on whether S contains zinc or aluminium.
i wrote alum. darn, i was very sure tt e ppt didnt disslove lor!
i shld have tried to fill ammonia aq till it reaches brim of test-tube!!! arghhh!!!
n truth is, we'll nv knw wad it is...
mrs ang say its zinc, other sch teachers say its alum.
anything lor..
i did sth stupid...
i wrote tt e acid is nitric acid...
i shld've listened to gut feelin n jus write HCl...
aft all, its e familiar acid everyone knws (n so-called loves)
at least im sure i got full marks (or part thereof =P) for titration.
mrs ang's titration value is 25.1
so is mine!
so is charmaine n eugene (marc extra, he had 25.2)
all the back row peeps same value lar!
latz they think we cheat... 0.0
paranoid queen. *slap forehead*
hey, i lost 8 marks lar (assumin the rest are all right)
so... if the full marks is upon 30, i still get my a2.
then i need to work hard in my paper 1 n 2.
so i think chem prac shldnt be too much to worry abt! =))

today, i read the blogs of many, talking abt their chemistry pract.
actually, its waaaay easier than previous year practicals..
i jus... screwed up. tts all...
lookin at all the many ppl's comments and everything...
all i can say is..
THERE'S HYDROGEN GAS?!?!?!

words of a paranoid queen.
she is worryin for her a1 for chem now.
(there's H2 gas???? WHERE!?!)

2005-10-24T22:48:00.000+08:00

hurray for the paranoid queen!
if u havent noticed, she has many un-announced titles!
jus tt bein paranoid will probably cover up everything
she is also the drama n the fickle queen!
(other names are unconfirmed)
but! 23th oct is a special day! =)
no its not my bdae...
all i can say is.. 6 months! =)))
yay! paranoid queen not as fickle as to crush on someone so often!
n he didnt think its lame to count how long one likes another
so there to u charmaine!! (she laughed like crazy... going 'you COUNT??')

if u ppl actually noticed tt i havent been online
(good for u! uve passed observancy test! -_-)
well, i have been cooped up at home
readin harry potty (order of phoenix AND half-blood prince)
darn i still dunno who is tt freakin half-blood prince...
its been a long time since i lost myself in the reading world...
mum always says tt when i read,
i cant hear her, n all...
hmmm...

but thnx to mr potty,
i concluded tt i have a weird knack
like charmaine in her blog
she wrote abt weird things abt herself...
i could only find two so far... =(

i CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT stand bathrooms with wet floors!
well... wet floors are ok when u have shoes over them
but no go with barefeet!
when im at home, if a bathroom is wet,
i wld head for the next one...
when i realised all bathrooms are wet,
i have no choice but to enter the bathroom...
only aft soakin my feet to 'adapt' to the bathroom.
weird huh?

and now this... i hate it when im interrupted in my readin...
tts probably y i ignore my mother n jus abt everybody else!
if he smses (which btw, he rarely does... only second time aft knwin him for six months?)
i'll probably read the sms, go 'yay' in my heart,
throw the phone aside, n continue readin...
and yes, if i get interrupted too much,
i'll jus get pissed.
(is tt y i have been feeling snappish? -___-)

aft chem o's (18th nov!!!) i wanna go kino n buy books!!
=))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
(the tot of it jus makes me happy..)
darn... one year ago, i was gettin all excited over the new bookcase tts comin to my hse...
arthur called me bookcase freak!!!
... am i??? =P

2005-10-21T12:56:00.000+08:00

someone who'll stay around
thru all my ups and downs
please tell me now
before i fall in love..

aiyoh, i think im bein a sucker
writin down song lyrics...
usually i scroll past lyrics...
but i guess there are some lyrics i wld wanna put to tell ppl how i feel???
well... def not this song...
i dun even knw if ive fallen for...

ah well... i jus now thought of sth
different ways of sayin grace by different ppl...
but... oh look! there's the time! gtg!

and... erm... i wld like to declare to everyone
tt the high tide has gone down..
(for now)
thnx so much for couselling and talkin to me =)))

words of a paranoid queen.
my crackerd hit 2GB!
yay! =)

2005-10-20T14:03:00.000+08:00

guess wad? i went to yahoo '4C fmss 2005'
i saw many of our blogs.. =)
n i found many many seniors, ex-fairsians
from 4C years back!
yay! 4C forever!!
hope that years to come our 4C juniors will yahoo/google '4C'
and find us there!

as for my depressing entry yesterday...
after drowning myself with 'baby got back'
i feel slightly more confident.
yeah! i like big butts and i cannot lie! woohoo! =)

u guys may have noticed...
i can blog multiple times in one day...
pls forgive! =)

i got myself into 'trouble' today...
i asked god why there seems to be a barrier btwn him (god lar!) n myself
n i looked into isaiah 31:1-3
isaiah was lamenting on ppl not trusting God
n i told god tt if tt is the barrier between us,
to take tt barrier away...
and after i said it, i was like,
'oh no. my o levels.'
i mean, god can say 'i shall test ur faith!'
and screw up my o's!!!
(jus like the indiana jones analogy i mentioned before)
i thought of tellin god not to screw up my o levels...
but i didnt. (tho he kns wad im thinkin)
so if i did badly for my o levels?
two words n a face. trust Him! =)
i believe tt God knws wad He's doin.

some stuff happened actually...
but i doubt its wise for me to say it in public.
n there's so many things i wanna say to u guys...
but i cant find the chance to..
i go, 'are u ppl there?'
n i get no reply.

i seem to notice that im givin my frens around me,
whom i so treasure, a lot and lot more pressure...
whether its weird questions, or advice.
thnx for tolerating me so. =)

i got weird question of the day!
actually, yesterday's weird question is,
'do u believe tt there r some things tt we will never ever know on earth?'
majority gave 'yes'...

so today's weird q is: if u can ask god just ONE thing, what wld it be?
to the ppl who thinks their lives are ending, shame on you!
dun u dare say what ask god to take u away,
or y He gave u such a wretched life...
it's not valid!
i think i wld ask him a weird question of THAT day, by then...
=)
or else its this... was i ever 'possessed' by sth?
i dun mean those things like ghosts possessin u or wad lar...

tell u guys wad happened.
well... when i was in P4, pokemon came out rite?
(darn, has it been THAT long?!?!?)
i was rather... pokemon-crazed...
well... i dunno how pathetic was i then...
but i did badly for my mid-years cos of tt...
in anger, my father (who came back frm china for a while) did sth i nv tot he wld ever do.
he bade me to take all the pokemon trading cards to him.
one by one, he cut them all up...
in front of me.

its not tt my father is evil or wad lar...
actually, my father nv uses the cane, nor anything.
my father nv hit me in all my life.
but tt nite was the worst ive ever gone thru (in my young pri 4 mind)
i was screaming, cryin, kicking my mom as she withheld me from taking them to my father.
it got so bad, ive got my first semi-asthma.
i cried, wheezed, screamed.
not once did he hesitate to look at me.
snip, snip, snip...
i think i finally lost it when he cut away my favourite card...

what really happened after tt..
i dunno... i cant rmb, or maybe i shut the door to tt memory so tightly n lost the key that locked it... to daniel seow (if he reads my blog), yes, go on n say i was crazy.. wad demon-possessed... maybe... we nv knw... myself felt tt i was a bit out-of-my-mind.
hey, i felt like dyin on the spot, literally.
i was obviously out of my mind... -___-

but i still dunno if i was really possessed or sth...
(i wasnt christian then, btw)
but now as i think of it...
my heavenly n my earthly father did me a great job.
they brought me out of sth tt was so scary...

n anw, i m not so crazy over pokemon
n i take notice not to go as crazy for anime/manga as i did then.
and besides, ever since the third pokemon season came out, i gave up
there's too many to catch on.
-__- by then i was in sec 1.
now, pokemon to me is jus... like tt lor...
i still cant believe irritating pikachu is a mouse
he looks like a rabbit, for whoever's sake!!
n eugene told me tt zl is still into pokemon...
(if i rmb correctly)
great... jus another thing to make my childhood worse...
my ex-daddy plays pokemon n terrorises little children around his block.. =P

haha, my entries have been depressing rite?
i shall try to write sth happy.
karolyn roxx.
oh no... oxymoron... >.<

words of a paranoid queen.
laughin like crazy.

2005-10-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

i was in a foul mood today.
for no reason.
or maybe it was too many reasons.

nathan called me flat!
he said his chest is bigger than mine!
*insulted look*
call me flirt! i dun mind
(after all, u could be true)
but NEVER call me flat!!!
(speakin of the devil, he jus went online... -__-)

then as if callin me flat wasnt enough...
he HAD to say tt joy is better than me!
*more insulted look*
but because of tt... i really started wondering...
is it really true that im inferior to joy??
i mean, mention joy's name,
and everyone (juniors n boys alike) scream 'JOY!!!!!'
mention my name, n they go, 'oh hi chris.'

*sigh* (paran-queen goin to depression mode)
is it really tt...
my mom commented to me this morning
'seriously, i might want to give u a sharper nose, and while we're at it, u could try lipo-suction.'
you ppl DO knw wad she meant... rite?
it hurt me.
why isn't she satisfied with the work tt she has made?
ok, so her daughter is mole-infested (tho not as much as gaegae ^.^)
and slightly on the plump side.
but... however much fat n lard n tissue u try to yank out of me,
its still me inside.

to make myself happy, i read my diary entries.
on the time when i started liking him.
i shall assume with 'pure' naive-ness tt he doesnt read my blog!
(he doesnt really bother to read my blog rite???)

jus to let u ppl knw...
this sunday marks 6 months... ^.^
yep, i rmb who is the first person to knw...
him! i rmb tellin him thru sms
'i think i might like u leh! so u cannot lead me on ok?'
n actually, i think he's doin a great job in not leadin me on! =P

then... there's the 29th of april...
one of the happiest days when i liked him...
i wonder if he rmbs it or not...

then here's a extract...
'and bcos he's short...'
and besides the short word i added '(hahahahahaha)'
when i saw tt jus now, i laughed like crazy.... =)
n it made me happier... lame rite?
*silly grin*

oh ya, karo n jia yee are bein so secretive abt sth...
-__________-
(karo wants me to add her in my entry)

words of a paranoid queen.
low self-esteemed.

2005-10-18T11:24:00.000+08:00

hitori ja nai
daijoubu
ai suru chikara wa eien

from my own translation it goes like this:
(either 'u r' or 'i m') not alone
it's okay... because love is forever...

then i went online and this is the translation they gave me:
soon, you will not be alone
it's alright
the power to love is neverending
(hey im close to it k???)

i once told him tt im sorry if i had offended him...
cos one of my frens said tt he was rather quiet...
and when he asked since when,
i thought he meant 'since when did u offend me?'
well.. no...
he meant 'since when was i quiet?'
ignorin the main point (which is whether i did offend him)

i seem to be doing everything wrong...
every single thing wrong...

words of a paranoid queen.
anata ga daisuki!
zettai! zettai!
...zutto... zutto...
(i wonder who understands it...)

2005-10-17T21:46:00.000+08:00

lets refresh this again...
Dearest 4C-ians who own the lime green shirt
each unlit candle represents a life yet to be brightened to its fullest potential =)
may you all find your flame in the end,
and let us all meet in 10 years time,
to light them together...

its the 17th of october...
its been 3 days since ive graduated from fmss...
in this three days i cldnt concentrate at all.
thinkin of my life in fmss
it says one thing about it
i enjoyed fmss more than my pri...

fmss has blessed me in many things in which if i had listed them out,
it wld have taken forever...
also, there's sth in my head tt i wanna say...

today i learnt tt in my pri sch,
if ure not able to make it into the first three class of p5,
u will be transferred to other classes...
regardless of merit
imagine... christina chiang, class 4G,
from the second best class of pri 4 she 'dropped' to the second last class of pri 5.
n in my impression, i didnt do so badly.
what if i was meant for the fourth class instead?
i wasted my 2 years in my pri sch,
fendin off teachers n 'frens' who disliked me...
answerin for myself when my form teacher scoffed at me for choosing commonwealth secondary school (cutoff: 241) as my first choice.
(fmss cutoff was only 238 i think)
i asked the person who told me the news whether he is serious abt this.
n all he did was to ask, 'why do u think you'll be able to get 240?'

discrimination?
in a sense, yes...
my pri sch (in tht last 'gossip') has told me tt they only focused on the three classes..
n the rest they simply dun care...
i mean, they teach different styles to the first n second class...
like more homework...
unlike my p6 class..
where everyday is a slack day...
i cant tell for sure if its a rumour
but i realised it has hurt me in some sense
i felt unwanted once more.

i wanna post pics...
but im doubtin if they r readable...
arghhh!!!

words of the paranoid queen.
ainan came back from sydney.
they won! =)

2005-10-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

yay! the last 10!

abhishek: the metal box of india! abhi is a good batter, n great in studies! good luck in all u do! =)

ceci: cecilia... haha, actually.. i m oso afraid of her... well... maybe its cos of her past records or wadsoeva... in fact, when she says tt we didnt mind her records n all, n i felt bad... =P not tt i avoided her. i still talk to her, but maybe our converstaions made me feel unmotivated to continue talkin to her... but while noticin her in class, i can tell she is a very cheerful n bubbly girl, someone i think i wld've enjoyed company very much if i had tried to talk to her...

seow: ah seow ah... hmmm... at times i cant stand him.. n he will tell u the same thing! but he's really humorous, bein all hypocritical! i enjoyed bein classmates with him!

stephen: stephen is a great arguer! but... most of the words he say... i dun understand! ahhh.... this shows tt my english suck!! *dejected*

guohao: ah hao! he sat next to me in sec 3! he has been really fun to sit with, n i think i dun mind sittin next time to him again! back then he keeps askin me if i still like boren.. =)))

sijay: my kindergarten fren!!! ahh... now we're leavin... cant bring ur picture to sch n sabo u alr!!! ahhh... so sad! will miss u!! =) mus be happy with eileen k?

alson: hmm... i think alson is very cute leh! i think think he is! i wont ever ever ever EVER forget the time on 140205, during PE, when all the guys came out of the toilet screamin. alson wearin g-string!! hahah!!! i really wont forget tt! =)

austin: hmmm... everytime u ppl always tease him, so i thought i shld be nicer to him... but i wonder if he had mistaken my actions... -_- there are times where i felt so paranoid tt he likes me! (okok hbh me..) but yea... tts wad i tot then... but pls dun pair me with him or wadeva at the nxt class chalet! i will fan lian... i wrote in jason's msg. i cant stand ppl teasin...

tian: aka! ok lar... rmb u told me (out of jokinness i think) tt u like akamaru in naruto?? well.. i think aka is soo cute! jus like u! so tts y i call u aka! tian is a really nice nice nice nice nice person!!!

if u read his blog, the part writin abt me, he was late... well, i was (oso) late, even later than him... i was scannin across the classroom for empty seats then. there were three. one was behind marcus, but i didnt knw him well, so i didnt want to sit behind marcus. there was another beside austin, n i wanted to sit there cos my frens are all behind lar! but sth tells me to sit with tian, n so i sat with some 'unknown' guy, n he didnt talk to me for the rest of the day!!! (he only started talkin to me the second day, when i talked to him -_-)

jinghan: haha, another guy who was with me for four years! i rmb they say he like someone! =) ehehehehe... i still knw who it is... =))) jing is a very clever guy lar! i once told marcus, 'if i was jinghan's girlfren, i would be very very very clever...' =D

on fri sth funny happened. we were all huggin each other. he hugged me tight (which i liked actually! u ppl hug so softly lor!! =)) then aft tt he said, 'ure the first girl ive ever hugged' n then i was like ' hor! no wonder u hugged so tight!' so funny!

tian won in havin the longest msg!!! then second is daniel ng, then marcus! =D

yay! with all dedications done! i shld start puttin up different pics rite???
soon lar...

words of a paranoid queen.
mouth feelin dry aft sayin words to 40 ppl...

2005-10-16T19:02:00.000+08:00

hmmm... i got many many photos in my com now! aft the loooooong dedication list i will show u guys the pics!

[continuin]
shibin: actually, i was oso kinda afraid of him, cos ive heard tt he really hated the loud-mouth me, but i learnt to try n talk to him, n unless he keeps his dislike to himself, we are quite ok frens too! in fact, he recommended me to 'honey n clover'. thnx shibz! its sooo nice! (tho im still at episode 8)

gloria: truthfully, the two of us had some... erm... indifferences in sec 2... n i guess tts wad stopped our frenship in sec 3. but recently, i talked to her, n yeah... we had a laugh over sth really soopid (only char knw wad it is), so i guess the two of us r on better talkin terms again! =)

jason: Tallie No 2! (momo taller rite?) i got to knw him in sec 2 alr, cos one of my frens liked him (n it's NOT joy! -_-) but jason is a very nice person! he actually quite tolerant of all the teasin lor! i wldn't have tolerated it at all! so good job lualua!

marsha: she is very nice person if u ppl really try to talk to her. she's jus a bit anime-fanatic (hey! i am too!) n btw, she is very aware that u guys dun like her, but as if u guys care lar.. *sigh*

mellie: haha, sexy lips! he became my messenger sometime last last week i think! he has a very big tendency of wantin to knw things, n keep bringin it up (without fail) when he shldnt have! but mellie is soo adorable lar! =)

mesy: my da jie! i wna say to u, u have been a great listener n a great advisor to me in the last 2 years! thnx for openin up to us! i love u! pls rmb us when u go back (dun go back!!! >,<)!! moses: momo!!! the classmate for 4 years! i rmb in sec 2 when we see that we are in 3C, we are groanin, sayin 'another two more years?!?' moses is one tt if u talk to him, he's very funny! n oh ya, there's a reason why i dun wanna talk to him. each time i talk to him, he always cld figure out who i like! no way im goin to tell him! (even if half the world knws now...)

daniel (ng): e... hehehe... sth very funny happened while in the sec 3 level camp. we were in the same group for the three days. we went mountain trekkin. n da xiao jie me was screamin my way down the mountain, so he took my hand n we went down together. he super nice lar, makin sure i didnt fall down again. then until one of the instructors saw us and said VERY loudly, 'can let go lar, dun act boyfren-girlfren!' we were so embarrassed tt actually... aft tt incident, we nv spoke to each other ANYMORE! =P lame rite?

but this yr i tried talkin to him again, n we were ok lar... until fri i brought up the incident again. then the two of us grinned at each other like idiots... =P (wow... his the longest now...)

olivia: my manga partner! she has been very helpful in givin me suggestions, n toleratin my depression when i have low self-esteem. she has been a great fren, n i hope tt the both of us will b able to publish our mangas! let me advertise hers! her new book! it's call 'evening all odds'! yay! go find it in ur nearest bookstore today!

nathan: this pervertic, lamer, 'joy, joy!' crazy person, is a very hilarious n entertaining person! i enjoyed his company a lot! i still dunno wads so attractive abt him (someone better! =)) but i can vouch tt nathan is a greta person to knw! plus, he was a taiwan resident (tho his chinese suck like anything!)

i got to knw him thru joel tan jin en. nate saw me once in the mrt station n asked jin en if i was 'ang mor' -_-... there was a time when i had a slight crush on him... ahh well.. he wld knw if he reads my blog now... =)

register 21-30 done! the next few is goin to be rather tough...

2005-10-16T14:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday was terrible in a way for me.
i learnt abt a lot of things tt i wonder if i shld have listened to.
i didnt regret knwin abt them.
i got to knw my fren more in the end.
n all things turned out satisfactory by 2300 last night.

weird Q: what wld u do if ur spouse is in a different church from u? will u guys still go separate churches? or go to the same church? or wad??

[so let's go again!]

jia yee: my bashful! jia yee have been really interesting in her own way. i always like it when she smiles at me! (eee... i sound so les!!) but she is a very good fren to me and i shall always treasure her frenship... i hope the both of us are able to go into the same jc for first three months (since we have the same L1R5!)

nigel: haha. this is the nice nice guy who lent me play with sesame street 'big bird' plushie! njj is soo cute in his actions, tho i nv really got to know him until in sec 4!! he n i share one common thing: we are both 'accident babies'. our nearest siblings are at least 8 years apart! =)

jeremy: haha, this guy ah. i kinda enjoy quarrellin with him! =) thnx to jeremy, i learnt to be even more outspoken in my thoughts (tt's y i am able to spew horrible words to him... did i ever?)

joy: ah toy!!! she is one of my first frens in fmss! i rmb in sec 1, i was in the old parade square, lookin all suah-ku and lonely, when she tapped me and said, 'hi, i'm joy!'

after tt, we were on norm, hi-n-bye terms in sec 1 n mid sec 2. somehow aft tt, we suddenly became such close frens, and i wanna say to joy, i love u soo much!!! thnx for listening to me, my paranoia, and my fickleness (all thruout 4 years, can u even rmb how many guys ive rattled to u?!?! =))!

chih-fai: lukey (i nearly mistaken him for lokey) he is a funny person. i love to watch him make a scene in class!! he is one of the elements of humour in our class, and hmph! he's taller! (i shant go into tt, still got moses n lua!)

i wont forget the time when our group have to scale the 1.7m ridin 'horse-like' beam. well... lets not go into tt... =)

jia yi: i really nv got to talk to him leh.. i rmb the day i was in an accident (last day before june hols), i asked lau jia yi the weird question of the day: wad wld u do if u found out tt i had passed away? and he said: nothing. made me so sad, but now tt i think abt it, its not his fault. i really didnt interact with him then. but i guess we r on normal terms lor! =)

eugene: he is actually my classsmate since sec 1 lar, n back then i thought tt he n junjie look so cute lor (no hidden meanin here -_-) but i really got to knw him when i found out tt he got super smash bros melee in his gamecube! then a few days latz zl n gene ask me join them for lunch (n told me abt their $5 n $10 girlfrens... dunno if they rmb) ... its surprising how things can turn out...

leon: leonard! haha, the last time i talked to him for a period of time was when we talked abt 'austin powers: goldmember'! he is really a nice guy lar! leon! must stop slackin le! jia you for the o's!!!

marc: i met him thru our mothers. they were waitin for us after choir... =)

say the truth lar (since we all have graduated for 48++ hours), i didnt like him in sec 1 n mid sec 2. some unknown reason, which i think i'll nv knw. but aft a lot of things tt happened, i realised tt marc is one of the sweetest, most sensitive (n insensitive) ppl i ever knw. he tries to understand how i feel, n the best thing is tt he makes sure i feel appreciated. i'll nv forget the day he told me, 'u're one of the best frens i ever had.' it makes me so happy, then guilty, cos i always bully marcus =) but i wanna tell marc, tt he's one of my best frens too! (oh no, this testimonial is jus a bit shorter than gae's one! ive measured! oh... now its longer... =P)

zl (my lousy ex-daddy!): my ex-daddy! who refused to build me an underground castle, who once didnt want me to call him daddy... yes, super lame at times, however, ah liang very nice one!!! he is very understandin in some stuff (tho i cant stand it when he takes SOOO long to reply!!!) this one always seems to be listenin when i have doubts of likin him (not zl lar!) so big thnk u ex-daddy!

kelly: kelly lim!! my lunch partner in jp!! i wont forget our fun lunches together, stimes with oli n her sis! (i rmb i call u 'hentai oji-san'! wanna knw wad it means? it means 'pervertic old man'! cos u keep talkin to oli's sis lar!!) *smug smile*

loke: lokey! i knew abt j.loke even in sec 2 (cos of karolyn) n i always call him j.lokey! he is a great worship leader, n i had lots of fun in the chapel band! he is also the one who gave me the opportunities to be his co-worship leader, n i really gained a lot of experience from it! =)

ok! until register 20!!! the next ten latz tonight i guess... =)

i got the card reader! yay! so now whatever pics i take in my phone, i can transfer into my com! so now we can see lotsa pics in my blog!!!

needa study.

words of a paranoid queen.
'find the way' is still in my head.
argh...

2005-10-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

i have an entry down there so read them on k?

i decided to blog abt 4C after graduatin for 24 hours.
this is wad i'll do.
i'll write out personal messages to wad i feel abt everyone.
then i'll talk abt what happened on fri

before i really start, here's the weird question of the day.

How do you feel, after graduating for 24 hours?
Mesy: miserable (i agree)
Me: totally unmotivated

(do answer my weird qs!)

so... with tt down, here we go!

junjie: i nv really got a chance to talk to him much lar, all i ever did was to compare who is whiter (NO! dun tell me the answer!!!) but he's really a funny person. wish i could've tried to talk to him more.

weeling: she is a nice girl, altho u ppl dun like her. hmmm...

cheryl oo: she initially is one of the ppl i am very afraid of. but after everyone's assurance, i got to know her more, n i gta say, she is one of the best frens i cld ever have! love u oo!!! *sing* oo-la-la oo-la-la oo-la oo-la-leh! (hey! it's one of the last times u'll hear us sing tt!) =)

chinhan: i got to knw him in the choir trip to prague, czech republic. he is so funny! i rmb tiffany n i always go, 'he's mine! he's mine!'

my ex-machi fren, the insensitive person, the two of us experienced lots of stuff, n altho he is still as insensitive as ever, he is one of my closest frens durin the short three years...

charmaine: my weird fren! who is always so enthu to answer my weird question of the day! altho she say she is quite insensitive when ppl are sad, but she is always tryin her best to cheer u up! n so i wanna say... charmaine! u r a great weird fren!

me: -_-

karolynn (with double n): see? i rmb u with the double 'n'! i've known u since sec 1, when we are in the same group for the egg carrier thing (we were rite?). we lost in the end, but had fun!

after tt, she has been my fren all throughout. i wasnt close to her in sec 1 n 2 (was closer to shilei n manu) but durin sec 3 n 4, it turns out tt she's closer to me than thought possible. love u karo! dun worry, i will join u n guoxi in acjc!

gaelan (great grand-father): my ggf my ggf! i love him more than the other ggfs put together (cos i nv really got to knw the others wad..) he is very mean, and insulting, and very rude. but when he shocked me by bein all nicey... n then i realised tt he's a great person!

oh btw, how he bcame my ggf? during truth or dare in sec 2, he had to hold xinghong (my great grand mother then) and walk around the class. so tt's how i asked him to be my ggf! he was reluctant at first one lor! (hmph... how come his message so long?)

haha, tt's all for now! the rest later on lar!

2005-10-15T13:39:00.000+08:00

save all the big and little talk later.
i only want to say one sentence

I HATE THE TAU POK GANG.

it's not the ppl that they taupok lar
its other reasons...
but... anw, friday u ppl go taupok here and there
and now we got ppl who are stripped
and lost their stuff
really...

ok, im sayin this assumin tt u guys ALR knw who i like (it's sooo obvious anw)
can someone assure me tt xbl is alrite?
ive been msgin him
(he has been not replyin)
if i dun hear frm him,
i cant even concentrate on studyin!
mesy!!! help me!!!
(cos she is always the one to get me out of my depression)

*haiz*

words of a paranoid queen
still waitin...

2005-10-13T21:55:00.000+08:00

weird Q: have u ever looked at urself in the mirror and think, 'i actually look quite pretty/shuai'?

well... i did.. hey, it's perfectly normal to me...
i admit it. i really think im not as ugly as u ppl think k? =)

oh yay, tmr is our graduating service...
is fmss tryin to chase us away?

Top ten things u shld do before leaving school:

Tell ur english teacher that she looks gorgeous! (i.e wch?)
Tell ur sec 3 english teacher that she looks pretty!!
Boogie while singing for the last time in the chapel band! (i won't do tt lar!)

the rest i havent really thought of leh... =)

2005-10-11T17:23:00.000+08:00

didnt want to drag my sad atmosphere into the new entry... so heheheheh..

yay! i got new brother!
he's liu ainan!
(pls, whatever stupid remarks u guys have of his name, keep it to yourselves! >_<)
soo happy... i long time dun have older bro lor...
*sniff* im gettin old..

something i thought u ppl wanna consider.
u knw certain blogs have hidden msgs in their background?
no... no point highlighting my blog to find my hidden message!
it's down in the files of my archives!!
im tellin mesy this lar...
dun think she ever tried highlightin my blog before!
maybe i should do tt again next time...
BOO! =)
yay, i updated my wishlist n profile! =)
ive figured tt i dun need a punchin bag...
can always get my new messenger boy, melvin, to vent my anger on! =)
lamer lar... i nth to write abt...

i do have a weird question of the day to ask! but i'll ask it tmr...
Weird Q: supposedly this guy/girl comes to u in the last few days of school,
and tells u that he/she likes u?
it doesnt stop there..
he/she kinda hopes that he/she can still be on talkin terms
even after graduation...
what wld u do???

i think i might get freaked out,
and probably scream at the person,
"why didnt u tell me earlier?????????????????"
well, not tt i might like the person...
but to me,
it's pleasant to hear tt someone admires u!

that's it. ive been single for too long.
gets to my head.
despo-ness loading into head... ... ... 70% complete... ... ...
argh...
lame-ness loading into head (too)... ... ... 90% complete... ... ...
-_-
shutting down... ... ... 99.9% complete... ... ...

words of a paranoid queen.
shutting down... ... ... 100% complete.

2005-10-10T18:10:00.000+08:00

"it's okay, dun stress yourself too much on ur o's"
that's wad my parents always tell me,
well, it's not surprising really.
when u find ur daughter in tears and staying up late for the first time
(n then later on finding out tt it wasnt to draw manga),
u gta get the hint tt she is worried for her future.

anw, they tell me not to freak out on all this.
"can't go jc go poly lar... nvm"
their words of encouragement helped a little.. i guess...
almost... negligible?
lift up the mask of white deception
and u find tt secretly, ur parents want u to score distinctions
till their eyes see stars...
i dun blame them.
there is this chinese saying 'wang zi chen long'
literally translated as 'look son become dragon' (and daughters to be phoenixes)

today mrs kwek was talking to me
she told me tt if i bothered to pay attention in class,
i can get my A1 for a maths...
i cant tell if she was joking
let me be naive and pretend that she seriously mean it. =)
that was very nice compliment (n stress to me)
but at least i feel like studyin hard for her.

then came my mom.
she started off by askin if i had brought my prelim papers to my tuition teacher.
and it went on...
and now she doubts if my teacher is effective...
i dun like the sound of tt.
i hate change (tt's y i wanna treasure this week as much as possible,
before we go thru the major change in our lives)
she is indirectly givin me stress
n i feel so weird abt it.
it's jus like the other time when...
nvm.

things went a little haywire after sept started.
to those sitting near me during the prelim results
so sorry if i had scared u back then, suddenly goin crazy.
to those who didnt witness tt scene.
pls dun go "hasn't christina been always crazy?"
the craziness i experienced that day wasn't my normal crazy..
oh well, no one understands what ive jus said.

darn... this blog entry is goin to be very depressin....
shall continue next time, when im on a happier note.

words of a paranoid queen.
feeling... out of her character.

2005-10-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

how can i let you know?
I'm more than the dress and the voice
just reach me out and
u will know that u are not dreaming

im still a sucker for 'eyes on me'
so nice...

today i stepped on the cursed weighing scale
and to my utmost horror,
ive gained weight!!
arhhhhhhhhhh!

i realised tt wikipedia is one of the nicest encyclopedias on earth!
they have literally everything u can find!
ahhh... hmmm...

2005-10-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

i went to the night safari for the very first time on friday!
and it's so fun!
of cos there were some stuff i rmbed from ex-tuition teacher mr marcus abt night safari
(like the snake under one of the benches)
but it's SOO enjoyable!
when the night saf is done with its upgradin can we go there someday??
there are things i've learnt there tt i thought quite cute.

the lesser bushbaby washes his hands with his urine n wipes them on his soles, so when they run around, they simultaneously mark their territories. the females sniff at the marks to conclude if tt particular male is in for mating.
the orex has perfect symmetrical horns.... (tt is so cool!)

Here's story by James Finn Garner, called 'Red Riding Hood'

There once was a young person named Red Riding Hood who lived with her mother on the edge of a large wood. One day her mother asked her to take a basket of fresh fruit and mineral water to her grandmother's house--not because this was womyn's work, mind you, but because the deed was generous and helped engender a feeling of community. Furthermore, her grandmother was not sick, but rather was in full physical and mental health and was fully capable of taking care of herself as a mature adult.

So Red Riding Hood set off with her basket through the woods. Many people believed that the forest was a foreboding and dangerous place and never set foot in it. Red Riding Hood, however, was confident enough in her own budding sexuality that such obvious Freudian imagery did not intimidate her.

On the way to Grandma's house, Red Riding Hood was accosted by a wolf. who asked her what was in her basket. She replied, "Some healthful snacks for my grandmother, who is certainly capable of taking care of herself as a mature adult."

The wolf said, "You know, my dear, it isn't safe for a little girl to walk through these woods alone."

Red Riding Hood said, "I find your sexist remark offensive in the extreme, but I will ignore it because of your traditional status as an outcast from society, the stress of which has caused you to develop your own, entirely valid, worldview. Now, if you'll excuse me, I must be on my way."

Red Riding Hood walked on along the main path. But, because his status outside society had freed him from slavish adherence to linear, Western-style thought, the wolf knew a quicker route to Grandma's house. He burst into the house and ate Grandma, an entirely valid course of action for a carnivore such as himself. Then, unhampered by rigid, traditionalist notions of what was masculine or feminine, he put on Grandma's nightclothes and crawled into bed.

Red Riding Hood entered the cottage and said, "Grandma, I have brought you some fatfree, sodium-free snacks to salute you in your role of a wise and nurturing matriarch."

From the bed, the wolf said softly, "Come closer, child, so that I might see you."

Red Riding Hood said, "Oh, I forgot you are as optically challenged as a bat. Grandma, what big eyes you have!"

"They have seen much, and forgiven much, my dear."

"Grandma, what a big nose you have, only relatively, of course, and certainly attractive in its own way."

"It has smelled much, and forgiven much, my dear."

"Grandma, what big teeth you have!"

The wolf said, "I am happy with who I am and what I am," and leaped out of bed. He grabbed Red Riding Hood in his claws, intent on devouring her. Red Riding Hood screamed, not out of alarm at the wolf's apparent tendency toward crossdressing, but because of his willful invasion of her personal space.

Her screams were heard by a passing woodchopperperson (or log-fuel technician, as he preferred to be called). When he burst into the cottage, he saw the melee and tried to intervene. But as he raised his ax, Red Riding Hood and the wolf both stopped.

"And just what do you think you're doing?" asked Red Riding Hood.

The woodchopper-person blinked and tried to answer, but no words came to him.

"Bursting in here like a Neanderthal, trusting your weapon to do your thinking for you!" she exclaimed. "Sexist! Speciesist! How dare you assume that womyn and wolves can't solve their own problems without a man's help!"

When she heard Red Riding Hood's impassioned speech, Grandma jumped out of the wolf's mouth, seized the woodchopperperson's ax, and cut his head off. After this ordeal, Red Riding Hood, Grandma, and the wolf felt a certain commonality of purpose. They decided to set up an alternative household based on mutual respect and cooperation, and they lived together in the woods happily ever after.

Silly story right? yet it held a lot of meaning... its abt women (or rather, womyn's) n their sexist views... u notice tt red riding hood isn't 'little' anymore... we all have this impression tt red riding hood is small, but whoever said tt she's young rite? discriminators!

the thing is, that the author uses very unique words to express certain words (like woodcutter as log-fuel technician, neanderthal as barbarian, optimally-challenged as blind.) i guess the author is tryin to emphasise tt we arent stupid?

i leave it to ur interpretation.

i noticed something whenever im reading people's blogs.
their blogs very much reflect the characteristics in everyone.
take marcus for example,
i look at his blog and this is the impression tt comes to mind
he is very hard-working.
dun believe me? go to his blog from mine.
u will see that for the past.... *counting* 5 entries...
forget that.
the WHOLE BLOG is filled with his worries over his results,
the limited time we have left etc
not tt im condemnin him or what.
he got all the freedom to write whatever he wants.
but like i said, his blog reflects tt marcus is anxious for the o's n the prelims
and i gta say, he did very well this time!
way to go marcus!
now to try n motivate the lazy brain of mine...

mesy... her blog is more reflective on what she has been thinking
stuff on her daily stuff...
another one who writes more daily stuff than thoughts is karo
(she seems more balanced)
Anyway, from mesy's blog i can tell tt she's enjoyin her life to the fullest in fairfield! =)

char ah... her blog is one of the most enjoyable things to read online.
for one, its really a collection of thoughts, n not a daily record of events.
so she nv reveals much of her feelings online.
hmmmm...

ggf gaelan *Lady Marmalade playin the background (EH?!?!)*
his blog is also rather thought-based...
i like his 'recent' blog entry
sane sediments (or is it sentiments?)
im still wonderin if that garson guy is referrin to himself...
its weird when ur same-age great grand-father thinks of a girl...
hmmm... he isnt as old as i thought eh...
(no wonder 'lady marmalade' is in the background)
my lousy lousy ex-father zl also another blogger who puts more of his thoughts than day events...
he recently FINALLY mentioned me lar! hmmm... for once.

and then again there are lots and lots of other blogs tt ive read, felt disturbed and dun really wanna talk about... but i thought abt my blog. what can u telll abt me from my blog? (other than the fact tt im talkative) do tell!

thats abt all with blogs...

before i leave u guys alone to ur peace... tell u guys sth...
abraham lincoln (i think e 16th pres of USA) was assasinated by this guy called john wilkes booth.
interesting thing.
booth is the great-great-great grand uncle of the wife of Britain's PM, Tony Blair...
ahhh... as how they would say
the plot thickens!

words of a paranoid queen.
she's feelin fickle n double-minded.

2005-10-02T21:33:00.000+08:00

*sigh* needless to say, my prelim results aren't gonna help in gettin me to first three months...
i've figured out tt if i can't go first three months i'll do as such:

go to taiwan n have a GOOD LONG chinese new year 2006!
take jap lessons (finally!)
go learn dance (even more rejoicing to that!)
draw! (n no one is going to stop me!)
take a part-time job (maybe tt will stop me from drawing) (sir, wld u like to have some coff.... ahh!! im so sorry to have spilled coffee on you!!!!)

however, if i DO get into jc or institute (can i? my shuai ge aaron eio say there's always MI)

of cos go for first three months!
still take dancing!
still take jap!
maybe wont draw so much lar...

mentioning about taiwan, i met my sis' bf.
he's quite a nice person.
at first i thought he very dao ppl one.
the whole night never once he talked to me!
so irritating!
i was commenting tt to my sis.

the next day when i saw him, he stretched out his hands and go, "mei mei!"
i was freaked out... =)
but he makes a great brother...
but... as how s.s essays wld go,
there are certain limitations...

he reminds me of too many people...
first impression, and i thought of weixin!
of all ppl!
then as i got to knw him better...
he is more like arthur.
obnoxious.
haha, not tt he's bad or what.
he's just... like how we knw arthur yue to be...
insulting in a very joke-y sorta way...

as such...
mum says tt i cant study outside anymore aft the study break!
darn, i simply cant study at home!
have to lock my room, so tt i wont feel tempted to play the com
n to prevent my mum from bargin in and out
my sis from bargin in and out
my DOG from bargin in and out!!!
arghhhh!!!

my study partner apparently wasnt tooo affected tt piece of news.
kinda surprised me, kinda expected it.
surprised me cos we are humans study partners
no one understands our humanities notes like we do.
maybe it's cos of the fact tt im simply dumb in my humans (n maths, n science)
she didnt want to be on a disadvantage perhaps?
after all, humans ARE born competitve.
i dun deny tt.

oh guess what? i'm tryin out a new diet.
red wine with fish oils every night!
oh c'mon, to the hypocrites raising their eyebrows at me!
red wine is almost non-alcoholic rite?
and im drinking about 5 ml of red wine!
that's not even enough to turn potassium dichromate (vi) green!
(is green rite?)
hmmm... if it's working, i will tell u guys k? =)

2005-09-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

argh... today is my prelims results!
the results are crappy...
ahh well..

right now im typin in the dark...
the light bulb in my sis' room is faulty, so the com screen is glarin at me... -_-
amazinly, i can type out most of the words in the dark.
somehow u knw where is the letter in the keyboard.
clarify, i didnt give a hoot to the typin lesson we had in pri sch.
rmb the one where they teach us to type w/0 havin to look at the keyboard?
yeah... so i guess this typin thing is sth to be practised... not really learnt.

my sis is coming back at arnd 2300 hours (tts abt now!)
best thing is, she is bringin back her bf!!
i wanna see how he look like!
if i manage to get his pic, i'll show u guys!

my ex ggf (great grand father) told me tt he wasnt THAT serious in disownin me.
when i read the sms, i anime fell. literally...
my knee now hurts... arghhh
evil person... dunno if he still my ggf notz...

oh guess wad? last night, i dreamt tt i saw xiao bai lian eugene walkin home
(how come he lives in a condo in the dream???)
i was wavin hello, n he (either dao me or he) waved back.
n i wasnt lookin where i was goin,
n nearly went head-on, into the lamp-post... -_-
xbl say he buyin ps2!!! arghhh... cannot!!
i wanna buy before he does! ive been eyein on it for 5 years!!
then he say he buyin nitendo ds, psp, etc etc...
so i decided, im either goin to live in there like a parasite,
or go to his house till i seem like one (parasite i mean)
i wanna watch hikaru no go, d.n angel, etc etc
i wanna play super smash brothers melee etc etc
hmm... i will make a very good parasite =)

words of a paranoid queen,
who jus cant wait to see how her sis' bf look like!

2005-09-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

the paranoid queen has a speech.
it will only take... 5 minutes =)
i hope it sounds familiar to fmss students... =P

What happens to a student after she takes her prelims

frizzy, unmanageable hair
terrible terrible eyebrows
bad bad complexion
stressed? (well...)
the case of 'where have all my nails gone to??' (arghh...)
another case of 'i gained 2 kg!!!!!' (well, i didnt gained soo much!)

*ahem* anw, i eliminated one thing off the list, tt is, my eyebrows
my fren saw it n she started laughin at crazy...
she said i looked 'painted'
n the word in my head was "geisha"!
darn...

although prelims are officially over on the 26th of sept,
cos i did sth lame n registered in tryin out CHC's e math mock paper
it's held on the 28 and 29th of sept.
so if u still see me doin e math
dun wonder.

i complied my top five guys!

1. Hotaru!!!!!! (from Samurai Deeper Kyo)
2. Crackerd (my beloved iPod Mini!)
3. Yamazaki Susumu (Peacemaker Kurogane)
4. Scratcherd (my phone! -_-)
5. Zell Dinct (FF8) (oh my, he still rox! chicken-wuss~)

And the people not in order of merit

Edward Elric (FMA! FMA!)
Vincent Valentine (FF7)
Gousuke (Spiral)
Cloud Strife (FF7)
Souji (Peacemaker)
Miroku (Inuyasha)

the rest are either not decided or forgotten.
as for my ex-great grand father n my ex lousy father... *shake head*
yes, my ggf disowned me. shamelessly.
he's still not goin to do anythin abt it.
feel so miserable.
hmph!

xiao bai lian bought ff8
(despite me tellin him to buy ff7)
(he did tt to spite me!)
with all the big hooha abt final fantasy now
(the silly guy dunno how to boost -_-)
i feel like playin ff again
so i pulled out my dusty ps (yes, i knw i shld go on to a ps2.. but ps3...)
n realised, in utmost horror, tt my ps lost his memory card!
darn, i need a PS2.

friday again. why does kok seng (one of the seniors in our sch) always see me in church in my weirdest fashion statements?
first time he saw me in church,
i was wearin a shirt, tie (winnie the pooh!), miniskirt.
he stared at me as if i was an alien. (greetings, earthlings! ^_^)
then he saw me last friday wearin a tiara.
once again, he stared at me as if i came to invade the earth.
i mean, of cos he knws me.
we have been in the same chinese class... -_-

Things ive learnt in studyin.
if ure stressed, dun bother doin maths.
unless u are so good in maths it de-stresses u.
or else, do some stupid questions like 1 + 1 = 3...
... did i say that 1 + 1 = 3?

oh guess what? my sis shared this with me.
in the book of Job, we all knw tt god gave Job a series of unfortunate events (hmmm... didnt watch tt show)
well, if u notice, in the end of the book, God STILL didnt tell Job why He gave him all the trials n tribulation.
it only shows one thing.
God does things on his pace n on his will.
whether He wants to tell u why he let a particular thing happen, it's up to Him, not us.
if it doesnt make sense to u, it sure did to god.
n... if God nv ever tells u why he gave u all the suffering,
dun complain.
u can always find it out from Him in heaven. =)

argh... managed to finish the MCQ in my chem tys.
i got 266/392 for overall.
tts like a B.
argh... so to marcus, who is afraid tt i'll win him somehow,
dun have to worry.

now... im sure to ppl *cough*charmaine*cough*
they are dyin to knw what happened to macdonalds...
i went to apologise to the guy (i kinda felt bad abt it)
n we apologised to each other.
cos i was a little lame
n he shldn't disturb us... (hey, he gta be professional abt his job!)
so now he's called 'uncle' by me, n 'gor' (brother rite?) by my fren
but he still asked her for her number...
zhen shi bu yao lian (super shameless!)
he didnt ask me. i guess i made my point too clear that day.

wow... i really reached the stage of sayin 'give me 5 minutes' n everyone time it at 20 mins...
thnx for readin till the end! =) *bows*

2005-09-22T22:19:00.000+08:00

argh... those ppl are persistent...
i flared at them yesterday
they kept sayin 'give him ur no lar...'
oh my abcdxyz...
i got boyfren lar!
hotaaaaaarruuu~~ (n my crackerd)
anw, its an embarrassin affair...
dunno how i face them tmr...
i jus wanna go there n study...
i really meant to call the babyface 'uncle'.. *smack forehead*

hmmm... i really nth to say nowadays...
or maybe i have soo much to say i dunno where to start.

Gaelan disowned me!! arghhh...
my fave great grand-father isnt that fantastic! seeellfiiish...
i mean, why cant he be more... benolevent?
i am the only great grand-daughter he'll ever see in his lifetime...
-_-
hmph... he told me that he can pay any girl to be his great grand daughter...
then he say he's joking...
hmph, i feel so cheated by him...
let him go pay whoever he likes!
he can go to the ends of the earth,
and wont ever find a great grand daughter like me!
so caring, so enthusiastic... for his will!

i have to say this: The person below is marc... who shamelessly placed my picture on his blog. (which shld still be there if u go my link)

hmmm... caught red-handed!

2005-09-20T19:23:00.000+08:00

*sigh* life's like that.
when u least expect any aspect of love,
it comes bounding straight at you!

wad i mean? well...
u knw i have been studyin at macs for quite some time...
and my fren n i started to be frens with the mac crew
there's this particular manager super babyface
it makes him so cute!

so one fine day one of them asked for our numbers
it's a female lar...
we thought she meant like sms when we dun see each other
until i heard 'call him lar'
my ears pricked up n i said 'match-making.'
she was like, 'no lar, make friends lar...'
oh my goodness...
so i refused lar...
how can i give my number jus like THAT?
but i was jokin to my fren 'if its the manager tts interested i dun mind lar!'

turns out...
it IS the manager!
talk abt premonition...
yeah, he's babyface
but he's waaaaaaay older!
like wad? 20++++?

besides, as if i dun have any guys to like...
argh... why of all ppl, do i have a crush on THAT person!
that is the last person i wld ever ever like!
arghh... prelims is making my head funny
i dun even knw who i like now...
but def NOT the manager...

well... i have many stupid things tt happened in studyin...
once we were at KFC,
and we took this picture...

Caption: KFC meets needs of the healthy & unhealthy

plain stupid... we have nth else to do... ahh well...

look! tissue box!!

*sigh*
words of a paranoid queen,
who utterly feels flattered...
yet wish tt idiot liu ainan say hi...

2005-09-17T21:11:00.000+08:00

argh... i have millions of things to say!!! so i hope this blog entry wont be too long.

Prelims started way back... n needless to say, after cramming for social studies for that last two days, i started slacking n deflating for some reason... history was hilarious! i saw neville chamberlain in my sbq, n the first thing in my mind is, 'britain's prime minister'. then i turned n looked at source b, n saw winston churchill. n i tot, 'crap, if chamberlain is PM, who on earth is churchill?' so i bluffed my way thru... without mentioning whether chamberlain or churchill is PM. i later on found out tt BOTH are PMs, in diff times though... argh..

next, it has been one n a half weeks since he said 'msg u later', n he didnt! so im plain pissed. well, i cld've smsed, but i was studying... n he promised to msg me back wad! i wld have enjoyed a frenly sms after a day of sanity in buryin myself with books.. so i announce... liu ainan if u see this n still dun say hi to me, u r a heartless.... noun.

erm... guess wad? do u ppl have any idea tt i draw? manga... the like... well, i do.. since... *embarrassed look* pri 1... and until this year, ive been drawing girls... so my girls look better than guys? in fact, my guys look like girls! *sigh* i feel sooo demoralised...

n i look at olivia's ppl... she started drawin last year... n everyone loves her drawings... well at least they knw which is a guy n which is a girl...

i ask, "does this look like a guy or-"
"girl"
"girl"
"girl"
"girl"
"guy trying to be a girl"

jealous of oli? i dun deny. aft all, im only human. its not like im gonna pour conc sulphuric acid on her or wad... i will still support her all the wayyy!!!

to final fantasy 7 fans, here's sth i tot tt u might like...

http://ic1.deviantart.com/fs7/f/2005/244/6/a/the_cloud_song__to_the_left_.swf

2005-09-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

argh... this sounds really not like me but
i really wish i had paid attention in wch's english class
at least i can rmb how to write forum letters,
and send it to straits times.

let me tell u a story, something tt im not afraid if it gets exposed to the public.
im serious when i say this.
because as a singyrean (in some sense)
i m utterly appalled by our singyrean behaviour

ok, i was sitting in a macdonald outlet nearby studyin (yes, i was studying, in case some ppl found it hard to believe)
and i like the noisy environment (matches my nature ya?)
and i was doing maths...
then there was this usual lunch time hour
where those screaming little monsters, no, i mean, kids (sorry charmaine!!)
play in Old Ronald's Red Shoe Slide (called ORRSS)

well, so i guess its pretty natural to find a little boy sitting on the floor, crying right?
my view of him was actually blocked by some tables
i thought he was jus stubborn tt his parents wanted to bring him home
aft a while (which is the time i took to do a math question)
that kid was still bawling his lungs out (not good for the throat u knw -_-)
and tts when i see ppl rushing in with serviets
and THAT's when slow-in-the-brain me realised tt he fell down.
no point in me helping alr rite? mac crew were helping him to the basin to wash up

i bent down my head n then i looked up
n saw that most infuriating thing ever
ppl were jus oogling at the boy who fell down!
i mean... the time lapsed when i did my math q...
the ppl were jus enjoyin the 'drama'...
i mean, ok, dun blame the children, they are young.
but the adults???
they were jus as eyed-bulging and oogled-eyed as their kids!
i mean... shame on singyreans.
in fact, to put it crudely, u ppl have no sense of (some cheem vocab word)
i mean, as least go GET help right?
instead of oogling at the victim.
i was so disturbed tt i cldnt complete my math.

i rmb when i was in p4 (wow... 5 + years ago)
i was in a small road accident
my semi-conscious mind then told me tt there were about 20 ppl gathered arnd me
but how many helped?
4.
pathetic.
a so-called doctor, and those two who called for help, and my neighbour.
the others?
well, some say 'poor girl' (for wadever stupid reason)
some prob recognised me...
some kids laughed.
arghhh
singyreans are... (another cheem vocab word)

im writin this down... somehow
since bloggin is such a public thing
might as well bring it to the public.
hey, dun come and say im speaking from a taiwanese view
after all, im a citizen of singy.

maybe if i wrote to the straits times, i cant convey my feelings as such rite?
darn... who know how to write forum letters?

2005-09-08T10:20:00.000+08:00

argh... i'm feeling sooo unwell... sick... and dun worry, im survivin... emotionally and physically and well... spiritually...

im currently watching this anime called 'hani hani operation sanctuary'
quite ok lar.. if u were to ask me.

im now watchin one of their special vids... like a copmplilation of each characters, their stats and the scenes that they are in... oh darn... it looks like its the last episode... spoilers! argh! ahh well.. looks like i might like this anime... but there is only one guy i like... he's some extra guy lar actually... but he's sooooo cute... =D but tt vid didnt sat his name!!! arghh!

argh... coughin like crazy...
words of a sick paranoid queen.

2005-09-04T22:02:00.000+08:00

ok... so lets conclude on wad happened to my crush on wed, shall we?
i call it 'when despo and despo meet'
hey... even he gta admit...
for tt spur of the moment, we jus like each other?
hmm... or else put it this way...
i like him cos he is really fun to talk to, very caring etc etc
plus other materialistic stuff tt makes me look like a shallow person if mentioned?
(tho i can tell him if he's readin this)
and he likes me cos i am very natural in my behaviour and..
he saw my blog on me crushin on him?
i knw it sounds stupid...
but i nv picked up any signs of him interested in me before sept 1st 2005...

of cos, i was super happy when he told me tt he 'likes' me...
but... there are many reasons to why i dun want to like him further.
one, to the god-lovin ones
he isnt christian
yeah...i got verses to back up for tt =)
so yeah...

two, to my own
i was asking god "why cant i like him? he is one of the nicest guys i have ever known..."
there was already an answer in my heart before i finished the question
God said "cos he is not the guy i have in mind for you"
and i asked "is all this 'for now'?"
and darn He didnt reply to that.
yeah i knw it sounded sms-y, but tts how it happened.

three, the slightly more practical, tho still crazy
(hey, since when is the paranoid queen sane?)
i have a two year commitment not to get into any relationship or sth like tt
reason? simple.
i have commitment problem.
its like, i so dun want to be a BIG slut.
but somehow i can go ALL out to chase a guy
and aft a while, (if im lucky tt the guy likes me)
i suddenly dun like him anymore.
its literally, wake up, and no feelings.
i hate myself for tt.
so... two years!! =) by the time ive graduated from jc...
i dun wanna hurt my fren. cos he sooo doesnt deserve tt! =)

but... i jus feel tt he is really a great person to knw lar...
he like super caring...
he is tryin his best to motivate me to hwachong jc...
and i was screamin "HWACHONG?!?!?"
so now he is tryin to get me to study...

i studied 8 and a half hours non-stop...
oh my... super shuang!!!
i forgot how much i like doin math..

ok, my weird question on friday is not very nice... its actually "do u think *this particular name* is a guy or girl?" and these are the results

marc, karo, mesy, mellie, nigel, nathan, maugtin: girl
jia yee, joy, oli, gaelan, florence, michelle, cheryl: boy
char and yuet: a feminine boy

and then i got very cute reasons and reactions
most of them when they heard the question they said "is WAD?!?!"
some of them asked "is there such a name?"
karo reasoned cos its 'wo ai nan ren'
(and its really evil of her lar... but well...
chinese sayin goes: innocent till proven guilty...
or better phrased is 'the ignorant are innocent')
the cutest reason is given by marcus, who said
"it definitely CANNOT be a guy one!"
darn, i laughed till i cried.

Answer: its a guy. its purely guy, straight. ok, rephrase, he is my hwachong fren! =)
uh-oh, unless im still gay *shocked look*
ah well.
words of a paranoid queen.

2005-09-01T19:53:00.000+08:00

itazura na KISS shite nai kuwanu kaosuru
it means "giving a mischievious kiss while making an innocent face"
sho cute rite?

ahhh! i forgot tmr prelims!!
ah well... lets go back to 310805!
hmmm... i saw ppl from 6G (like yuki, wenting, jasmine, fraser, hwee qi, geraldine, shunrong etc etc)
ehhh?? where's ian?
out playin soccer again i see...

then i saw
yuet feng- my goodie fren!
her fren michelle- who is soooo sweet!
ainan- who is like freaking tall! (does it ring a bell? =) )
yongkang- still as obnoxious as ever
weilai- whom i forgot his name!
maug tin-whom i can always nv rmb how to pronounce, or spell

i feel that i am much closer to my ex-classmates of pri 3 n 4
instead of my p 5 n 6 class... somehow...
and i feel much closer to the 6G' 01 guys than the 6G girls

yeah... ahhh!!! i saw ian choo!!
amazin tt aft 4 years.. i still feel happy seeing him...
*hee* but i dun like him lar...
tt was waaayy over...
i got better things to think abt now...

haha... i got so many things to tell u guys lar...
maybe one weird question is enough to sum it up??

Weird Q: wad wld u do if i tell u i got bf??
when i tell the seven dwarves tt i got bf, they always dun believe me!!
am i THAT incapable of gettin a bf?? hmph...

2005-08-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

hey peeps, happy teachers' day! and to karo, teacher-to-be! *smile*

i have no time, but i only want to declare sth.

only yesterday i was so upset over this fmss guy.
and today in rulang while i met up with my old classmates (in p 3 &4)
i found myself havin a crush on this other guy...
i mean, actually, last year i already had a minor crush on him,
but because we had some differences (and we quarrelled like crazy)
then i stopped likin him.
and now...
darn, the paranoid fickle queen strikes again...

he is like... sooo tall!
179 cm... a far cry from fmss mr shortie :P (abt like wad? 10 cm???)
but one thing that my fmss frens might find interesting.
he's super fair!!
fairer than me!!! (argh!! i will hate him for tt!)
he is the REAL REAL xiao bai lian! (step aside, junjie!)
he is in wushu i think...
(my mum is like saying, "so is he plannin to beat up his girlfren or wife?" -_-)
he in hwachong mah...
(he told me, "see u in hwachong"
and i was like "WAAAAD?!?!?")
but.. he isnt christian...
well... at least his parents dun allow him to be one, accordin to him..
so i guess... crushing period is over again?
i dun want to be disobeyin god ya???

i mean... earlier on in the afternoon, i was complaining tt he is sooo tall...
then i did sth silly, but pure paranoid queen.
i grabbed his arm and said, "will u be my boyfren?"
of course i was joking, and i really didnt mean it back then.
but as we were from different cliques, we didnt go to find the teachers together
and i found myself thinkin abt him...
darn... n now i gtg... cos he is waitin for my reply in smsing... *grin*
and oso watch 'peacemaker'!!
i wanna see how shuai does that vice-head be (chin han was practically 'swoonin')
weird for a guy yeah?
ah well... i swoon over 'burst angels' and their figures (refer prev entry)

as for my other rulang episodes, pls tune in! haha
i wanna go watch tv le...
and talk to hatty!! byeeeeeee *muaks*cringe*

2005-08-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

its the unofficial last day of school! woohoo!
and on the 'last day' of sch, so many stuff have to happen... *pout*
like... goin to buy 'burst angel' for sammie, and then there are emotional fluctuations etc...

so if you people are wondering what happened well... i hint, and you ppl guess? haha
well... i dunno how to say it such that it wont offend or hurt anyone's feelings...
u can say tt i was feeling rather paranoid and... well, okay fine... i'll tell...
i hate him. i do. i wish i never liked him.
i hate it. the look that ppl give me when he starts to talk to other girls. like, i need to make a comment abt tt, and the people around me give me tt 'are u okay?' look. well, the attention lasts as fast as it starts... and then i get very irritated with it. i mean, im okay!!! its not those shojo comics where the guy talks to another girl, and the girl lead CRIES??? utter rubbish. though shojo manga are nice, but their ideas are kinda warped (darn... is tt how my brain came abt??)
i wish he is like hotaru. a piece of paper.
it took hi 5 + 3 (without karo) the whole free peroid + recess to cheer me up. and they did the most stupidest things!! (yay... love u girls soo much!)
so i could tear him up into pieces if he pisses me off.
then marcus 'ruined' their efforts! cos i was singin chinese song, then marc said 'only mesy can sing this kind of song'! poor guy, i started cryin, and everyone started scoldin him... *grin* sorry marc, i knw u were jokin! big thnx for sayin sorry so many times!
as time go by, my reluctance to even look at him increases.
my weird question of the day is this. if you want to forget someone, but find out that u couldn't. you would...
then ironically, my willingness to look at him increases.
char: force myself to forget
joy: same as char
oli: let time take its course
mesy: same as oli
karo: continue liking him
loke (asked unexpectedly): ask God =)
ya... such are the results... well... no comments to why i thought of that weird question....
and then at times he talks to me, at times he totally ignores me.
oh guess wad? hi 5 + 3 is no longer in existence! now we call it 'snow white and the seven dwarfs'! haha... so the people are as below.
Happy: Charmaine (hee...)
Sleepy: Olivia (she got this name, hands up and down!)
Grumpy: Cheryl (fits rite??)
Doc: Mesy (cos she's the cleverest/and oldest =P of the group!)
Bashful: Jia Yee (*^.^*)
Dopey: Joy (Lua/Lim)
Sneezy: Karo (haha, sorry karo, didnt expect to put ur name last!)
and Snow white is yours truly, because im fair... and im taller than the other seven girls... -_-
fun rite??
but aft all the memories i have of him, i can only conclude this.
oh ya! my godbro khee xuan is actually going to compete in hwachong idol tmr!! hahahaha!! laugh till my teeth drop! he's going to sing 'i'll be there for u' from 'friends' theme song! dun worry, brother! i will support u!!! jia you!!
i still like him. i do. a lot.
darn, i want to have a figure like those in 'burst angel'! oh my goodness! they are sooo pretty, and their figure is sooo hot! (do i sound les??) ok lar, give discount. i dun need their extra big boobs, i just want tt slim waist, sexy legs, and defined collarbone!! darn. so much for fantasy.
and wont ever forget 29th of April.

2005-08-28T21:34:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh!!! i changed my blogskin!!! wooohoooo!!!

what to talk abt??? hmmm... actually... nth much...

oh ya! advertise my song to listen to!
"everybody needs someone sometime"
by jewel kilcher!
her songs are soo nice!
lemme give u a bit of her lyrics (a little kinky?)

Sister Mary used to be a nun
She thought that she'd retire and have her some fun
Mr. Joe of the Philadelphia Joes
Well he walked in the post office one night
He said hey sweetheart you know you look all right

ahhh!! so funnn!!!

2005-08-27T16:57:00.000+08:00

god works in unknown ways...

i asked my weird question on thurs, to hi 5 + 3: What wld you do if you have two hours left to live?
unknown to the fact that within the 5 km radius from our school, a fellow fairsian was struggling with wanting to see God and wantin to be with her family and friends...
in the end, God had His way...
and she left her beloved family and treasured friends in earth.
she had completed her purpose in earth, and God wants her back in heaven...
personally, i don't knw Doreen Ho
but i was kinda affected when miss lim announced the tragedy...

to all the grieved...
pls believe that she is in heaven
rejoicing with the angels who recieved her
the leaves in heaven are made of gold
and they have completely healed her
God has already wiped her tears away...
and told her "good and faithful daughter of mine, welcome home.."

so why grieve? rejoice that she is so happy in heaven now..
and as for the 'left behind'...
treasure the people that are around you...

2005-08-20T18:41:00.000+08:00

sy rogers came to our church last night!
okay, background of him...
he was actually an ex-homo...
but god got him out of that...
so now he is a speaker that deals with sexuality and so on lar...

well, he is one of the funniest speakers i've met!
and last night he said some stuff that i thought are quite worth pondering...

1. God is like the pacific ocean

theory is this: we can stay at the pacific ocean, splash and swim around...
but we can't explore every inch of the ocean
we can't go too far, or go too deep
why is that?
we would be too overwhelmed by the ocean (get the analogy?)

but from all the splashing and playing in the pacific ocean
we can concluude on two things:
the ocean is wet, it is salty.
same goes for God
we can gather our experiences from God and conclude some things about God like,
He is good, He is Love!
So yeah... God is like the pacific ocean...

2. God is like indiana jones *indiana jones theme plays*

i mean, when we entered into church and accepted Christ as our Saviour
we say "yes God, i have complete trust in you and i give my life to you! make me and change me!"
it goes on, and we enter into a covenant with God.

so the next thing you know, you are hanging on a fragile piece of tree branch
every single element of Mother Nature seems to be against you
and below you is a bottomless pit
and God says, "Let go off the tree branch. TRUST ME."

before u ppl go off writing tt i m some atheist,
i jus thought, 'the indiana jones part comes actually because
walking with God is like an adventure to me
i resist temptations n face trials
i contemplated of givin it all up
but God is faithful
and has promised the treasure that i will find in Him
see? it's SOOOO indiana jones!
and this 'further explanation' wasn't said by sy rogers at all!
i thought abt it, and it came to me...

3. God is a master of understatements

Waaaay back in Genesis, God created the whole universe!
He made everything, from highest of heavens to bottomest of seas.
He created every single digestive system, every single brain cell
He thought of the many permutations in DNA and the number of hairs each of us should have.
all this He created and all He can say is
"It's good?"
See? understatement.

would love to continue
but my sister stops me from doin so...
bye then!

2005-08-19T17:07:00.000+08:00

haha... guess wad? li zhengliang became my father! Becos of this weird question: What would you do if you're princess? He said he is the king (i wanna be the princess!) so here i am, as his daughter! haha.. okay let u guys know other people's answers:

Karo

Chop off Gaelan's fingers
Get Oscar
Sue ZL (hey... my daddy lehhh....)
buy all the glitter, Cadsbury, Surf Babe and Billabong
Sue (someone) for giving her h*ll in secondary school
go shopping and watch all movies
ban Chinese (NOOOO!)
disfigure (someone)'s face and body

what a scary princess...

Joy

Get a prince
Buy Equinox and Ripcurl
Learn Spanish
Have CS and Sims 2 games

Marsha: Get a prince
Jia yee:

Get a big bedroom, or
Run away from home (she doesn't want to be a princess)

Weeling: wild shopping spree
Char: make everyone buy a piece of her homemade jewelery (but she will be a mafia princess... so cool!!!)
Me:

Buy a new iPod mini (and call it 'uncrackerd')
Propose to (someone)!

Next Question: What type of castle would u stay in?

Karo: beach, made of sand
Joy: Clouds
WeeLing: mountains
Jia Yee: hilltops
Marsha: somewhere in Europe
Char: Italy (where all the mafia is)
Me: underground!!!!

i want underground lar... but my lousy father wants his castle to be made of ice...

2005-08-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

something to clarify!!!

i bought a silver iPod mini on Saturday...
and 4 days later (which is today)
i cracked the screen!!!
argh...
you guys can give me the title of 'highest rate of destruction' (better than Marcus)
for once im better than marcus at sth...
and im not too happy abt it..

then (after crying and making myself look as terrible as any zombie in 'land of the dead'), i started thinking: there is a reason why God made me so miserable...
and the reason is this.
ever since i had my iPod, i have been thinking of it, and not God
seems like a stupid reason, but after all,
thou shalt have no other gods before me
so i guess i wasn't putting god first.
so God 'reminded' me gently abt it
hey, at least my iPod mini is still usable,
i decided to call it 'crackerd' (pronounced 'crack-ked')
and i learnt a very meaningful lesson...

unfortunately, my mum doesn't think it tt way...
(of cos i didnt tell her abt the God part)
she was like 'so what if it still works? no one brings a cracked mp3 player overseas'
or sth like tt.
so insulting of my poor Crackerd...
looks are very important in the real world i guess...

but why so? doesn't a cracked iPod mini and a normal one work jus the same?
why so prejudiced?

my mum was raving all the way...
and i could tell she thinks i'm incorrigible (that how u spell it?)
so... since when is she proud of me?
okay... so i got 240 for PSLE...
but i slacked and ended up in 2D... (my fault actually...)
okay... i got a1 for chinese o levels...
but when she found me drawing, she got pissed...
then again, when she bought me my iPod,
it happens.. *looks at Crackerd*

so from my side-tracking, i come back to this point.
R looks and appearances so important?

weird musings from a paranoid queen-

Weird question of the day: Suppose your child just completed his/her O levels. How would you feel if your child tells u that he/she had actually dropped from a good class to a average class, and you didn't know anything abt it for three years?

hmmm.... it happens...

2005-08-14T20:34:00.001+08:00

Yo peeps!

it's 8:35 pm, i am sitting at home, typing away at my blog.
Must be a strange sight, since my com has been down since february

NOT ANYMORE!

i got my computer fixed yesterday! woohoo!
why didn't i blog faster?
i was out buying sth... *hint hint*

anw, i am back! wonder if anyone misses me? i hope they did... so sory for making you guys wait for soooo long!

now that i am back, i have to declare, i am in e middle of my o level preparation period!
terror and nightmare!
the only thing that is making me insane (ya, studying makes me sane) is my fanfiction, my friends and GOD! (GOD roxxxx!)
well, im in a crazy mood now, so i might as well declare
that i am a writer of www.fanfiction.net!
yeah, i know you guys know that, but i didn't tell you more about it, right?
well, so now i have been writing like crazy in the june hols...
still not goin to tell you my pen-name!

i just did sth crazy!
i went to register in www.fictionpress.com (since i have stories with original characters)
do i really like writing so much?
i guess so...
i like writing, along with drawing, singing, dancing, studying (0.0) and talking.

haha, poor ppl...
have to listen to me talk on n on
when i have just come back into the IT world!

okay that's it. i've gone mad.
maybe it's cos i haven't blogged for a long time.
see u guys in school!
and good muck for your eng orals!
luck, i mean.
*sigh*

2005-07-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

Yo! Loooong while since i blogged!!!
Credit to Joy!

Ahhhh... i think that now, with my inaccessibility to blog...
you ppl are SO not updated...
so maybe after my o levels...
i shall continue blogging as though nothing happened for the past 6 months.
Gosh... has it been THAT long?

2005-05-14T10:16:00.000+08:00

haiz...

i jus realised my frenster account superr pathetic... *grin*

ahh well... hmmm... jus a phrase to describe my service leraning. okay lar... it's not as fantastic as the others, but i still did have fun... hmmm... listen to almost everyone talkin on and on abt their service learning, i kinda regret a little tt i wasnt able to go overseas with them.

my fault actually. i didnt want to go overseas this time. or else my dad will have to work his butt off to pay for me.. he isnt exactly young u knw... its like, now i look at him i would think to myself, did my father jus lost weight? i see somemore strands of white hair... he needs to dye his hair again... and i dunno... i jus wish my father is able to retire and rest... he's approaching 60 in 2 more yrs... i wonder whose father has reached tt age...

2005-05-10T13:08:00.000+08:00

in sch...

my com has been down since feb 13!!!
arghhhh!!
i wan my commmmmm!!!
haiz...

anw... lotsa stuff happened.
i mean, A LOT.
but ah well... lil fickle me is back to liking... someone else.
and im still not tellin u who!
it's not EXACTLY obvious (tho it will be sooner or latz)
but he soooo sucky...
he seems to be avoidin me.
yeah, he DOES knw all abt it
(he's the first to know lar!)
hmphh...
let him go and rot and die
and i hope he rots when he die.
lamer.
words from a paranoid queen.

2005-02-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

hahaha!!! i got frenster nowwww!!! woooohoooo!!

yeasssss i finally got frenster! so add me add me! haha... nvm...

im finally down to the last chapter of one of my stories!! yay~ so shuang lor!! okay lar, tell you guys what i've been blubbing abt for the past few months. im one of those crazy ppl who contributes to www.fanfiction.net yes... i'm one of their writers!! haha, it shldn't be toooo hard knowin wads my username.. in fact, if u ask me, maybe i will tell you! haha...

yesss.. im an avid writer... welll... i basically write for fanfic stories from an anime that i'll doubt you'll knw (3 guesses to wad is it!!! c'mon! i always scream the anime name!!) and final fantasy 8!!

if i have a jap name... it'll be

FUJIWARA MICHIYO

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Okay.. so maybe i won't go for Fujiwara Michiyo... i'll go for Hotaru [kanji word= "Ying" as in "ying huo cong" (firefly)] anytime!

2005-02-11T16:46:00.000+08:00

Look out of the window!
Do you see a white condo?

haha... that's wad i was telling chin han today... im startin to rhyme... jus like arthur.. OH NOOOO!!!!

new webbie i saw along the waves (i was surfin... duh!)

http://amf4u-online.com/Layout/goodmanbra.html

it's abt the difference between a bra n a man!! haha it's SOOO cute!!

and i know i'm lame, but i spent 2 whole minutes playing with neko (it means "cat" in jap)

http://amf4u-online.com/Layout/neko.html

2005-02-10T17:44:00.000+08:00

hmph!!! he lost my barry white song!!!

ahh well... at least tt goes to show tt we patched up lar....

lalala... nth to say lor...

happy new year! (YAY!)

sch startin tmr... (boo~)

went for dimsum today... my father say he's treatin his fren's immediate family... turns out that the "fren" of his invited his brother's family, his mother etc etc... i counted the total.. 10 of them!!! excludin my dad, mum, tink (my sis) and myself!!! that's like... 14 mouths to feed!! my dad wasted $500 on stupid dimsum... arghhh... those suckersss... i mourn for the thinness of my father's wallet now.. *grin*

ahh well... $500 down the drain... no use crying over spilt tea.. i mean.. milk...

2005-02-09T19:12:00.000+08:00

17 hours...

here's this poem i've read from chicken soup. hope u guys like it.

she smiled at him, without any reason.
the guy who received it then suddenly remembered a favour that his fren did for him
and wrote a long letter to thank his fren.
that fren read his mail in a restaurant and was so happy
he left a huge tip for the waitress.
the waitress gave it all away to a homeless old man.
the old man decided to go to his shack and stop beggin.
he picked up an abandoned puppy on his way home.
the puppy was fed, washed and put to bed.
late at nite the puppy sensed a fire
and alerted everyone in the neighbourhood.
that saved a little boy home alone that nite,
as his parents were out in the evening.
the little boy soon grew up to be the next president of america
and all this wldn't have happened,
if it isn't for a smile.

2005-02-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

it's been 13 hours since he smsed me..

2005-02-09T11:15:00.000+08:00

erm... ah... mei tiao da jie xiao xiang... (in every street and alley)

i quarrelled with him
haha
okayy
more like he is angry with me
cos...
i didn't wait for him after school
haha
to some of u guy
u may think it's stupid
but i still feel "guilty"
i did promise him tt i'll wait for him if i can
but thing is
i cldn't tt day
ahh shucks and dolphins

it's the new year
and he is angry with me
wads wrong with me???

2005-02-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

hello! hello! (hola!) i'm at the place called vertigo...

hahaaa!! hey!! today's choir rehearsal at singy conerence hall is okayy lor...

i reallllllyyyy nth much to say... im so bored of bloggin tho... maybe i shld blog when i got things to sayyy...

hmm.... let's see... let's talk abt materialistic stuff! my dad came back!! he bought for us SOOOO MUCH ANIME!!!! hahaha!!! stuff like ranma 1/2, one piece, marmalade boy etc etc... but he oso got for us ally mcbeal (season 3), and the best... WILL&GRACE!!! SEASON 1 AND 4!!!! ARGGGGHHHH!!! YAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!

okayy... and oso, erm... my sis decided to let me read some comics for chinese new year... so i continued "BLEACH" and started readin "Naruto"... MUAHHAHAHHA! i knew it! chinese new year is not such a bad holiday after all!!

2005-02-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

i am a firefly. i give out light. but i still need someone beside me to guide me and show me the way...

haha, erm... nth much... throat kena worse now.. n i am not the solo peeps singing for "ave maris stella" ahhhh well... i am sad, duh! but its for the good of the choir anyway!!

im really bored now... there's nth much in bloggin nowadays...

perhaps i shld create some stuff in my life... it's so borin... so stiff..

2005-02-03T19:40:00.000+08:00

insensitive.

choir now is of one word: insensitive. the fairfield choir is a emotionless, insensitive, piece of wood. i lost my passion for the choir, ever since the start of this year. i tried to keep that fadin fire from burnin out. i guess tt today, as we sang the chinese song for our new year celebration, i realised that i dun have any love wadsoeva for the choir. gone are the days when i love to go to choir, even if it's every single day. we are dead, singing like dummies. i can't hear any music from the choir. i can't believe we are goin to die jus like tt.. i wish our conductor can jus leave us. we dun even deserve to be conducted by her.

then i yelled at the choir. yeah yeah, i know im not in any position to shout. but who cares? it's my last year. let them hate me.

wonder if there's a award lower than certificat of participation... if our singin sux, but discipline ourselves, fine! i dun mind. tt's not the case lar... our singin sux, our discipline is worse...

wads the point of singing for SYF this year??

well... on a happier note, chin han finally apologised, we resolved our conflict, and all is happy! yay! haha, well, i can add somemore stuff abt this, but i shall stay it this way

2005-02-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

tear stains on my cheek, eyes that couldn't bring itself to cry anymore...

how my heart aches tonight, dear reader... chin han, without rhyme nor reason, ignored me as if i offended him... n i cried. click *pressing counter for no. of times i cried*. right in front of him. he was there stoning, subzero-ing... he's subzero chin han. he doesn't sense that ure sad. he jus stares at u.. waiting for the crier to stop.

cried again on the way home. click. cried again when someone brought it up. click. three times in one day. all cos of a guy. it made me realise and ponder something. it struck me, that chin han meant a lot to me, as a fren... i nv tot that there wld come a time when him leaving me turn out to be disasterous...

it turns out tt he was ignorin me to scare me. n i got really angry. here i am really cryin my fear out. i bet he's laughin softly to himself. i said, he's subzero chin han.

i pondered. it looked as if my tears, that dun appear as often as u guys wish) are wasted on a guy who doesn't bother more or less if u feel hurt by the ways he uses.

ahh well... click.

2005-02-01T18:42:00.000+08:00

the world's so unfair...

okayy... it's like, after school, i was in the crowded train, going home... at dover mrt (i took the train at buona vista), there's this poly guy that came and found a standin place right bside me lar! so i was like, yay, some guy is standin REAL close to me. but... wads the deal with this guy? he's like more than 180 cm tall lar!!! i felt SO threatened by his height lor!! i REAALLLY felt like turnin to him and say, "Let's get this out of my system. u' re intimidating me with that height of urs... and it pisses me off.." but i didn't do that lar...

then wad happened? i stretched my hand to hold on to the railing above me, and guess wad??? i felt his hand by accident! ARGHHH! the guy retreated his hand like as if i am HIV-positive or sth... WAD'S HIS PROB MAN! so like in my heart i go, "...Opps... sorry..." *sigh* too badd.. he's so cute!

today's mesy's bdae!! charmaine n i went to holland village to get her a cake and flowers. i took another video from kelly's phone again! this time, i went on abt us going to holland. v to get mesy's pressie.. but i spoke so fast, no one could understand it when it's replayed... ahh weelll... =) haha..

so... back to me n char... we were there, debating whether we shld buy a bridal magazine. hey! we're SO not desperate okay? we jus like the idea of lookin at the dresses... *hee* actually, char kinda influenced me to get lar... it doesn't matter to me... i like readin *almost* anything... so we're talking abt whether we shld buy when we saw Mr Vincent Chia!!! okay guys, correct me if i'm wrong. mr chia is one of our many discipline masters... right?? so the two of us are like... "good afternoon, mr chia..." and all...

Imagine! what will he think if he sees two sec 4 girls from his school, carrying sunflowers, cakes, burgers AND a bridal magazine?? he might think of us as two despo, weird and crazy girls who wanna get married soon!! and who knows? we r gonna play a game! it's called, arrange ur own bridal shower!! *deep in thought* maybe i'll get burgers for my future bridal shower.... -_- haha, that will be SO fun!!!

i wanna be a sec 1!!! but ahh well, who cares, the map readin session is over lor!!! -_-

2005-01-31T22:13:00.000+08:00

i go out seal-hunting with my best fren tarkaa, but all i wanna do is get into his parka...

Woohoo! I'm the only gay eskimooooo!!! haha! anw, hm... monday is boring... ran 2.4, walked the whole way thru, sprinted like crazy at last 200m and my lungs kena crushed... argh... and here's the flash: I FAILED! ahhh... nth unusual anw...

got so pissed when gaelan told me not to scream... c'mon lor! i'm not shoutin at all!! arghh... y mus ppl keep emphasisin the high frequency in my voice???

haha, told fakie tt we gta cut down the frindges for ous smses.. he was kinda sad... i think... who cares??? he's gonna come tmr and bring the sec 1s out to bukit timah nature reserve for map reading... *kneel down*pray* GOD... lemme be a sec 1... jus for tmr!!! *no reply* arghh...

met this ghim moh volley-baller who is pissed that we won in volley ball lar... dots! he's so funny...

WOOOHOOOO!!! SO MANY PEEPS REVIEWED FOR MY WRITTEN WORK! one even commented that i had good sentence structure! *fan myself with feather fan*sinister laugh* YOOOOO~~~~ HOHOHOHOOHOHOHO!!!! haha... it's rather ironic... cos i always get C6 for my english!! HAHA! nvm... thnx to all out there who gives me reviews! LOVE YA!!!

2005-01-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

I've gotta dream, straight from heaven...

Woohoo! jus came back from bible study! YEAHHHAAA! next week i will be endin the whole book on "gettin started"!! yeaaahh! then i can finally concentrate on my o's!

hmmm... long time since i blogged.. im gettin bored with it... haha... maybe it's jus cos i dunno wad to write...

oh guess wad? i totally freaked out for no reason on saturday! choir workshop! i have no idea that i can actually freak out lar!! ARGHHH!

oh yes, i found miki rather ironic. she is year '88... but she insists that she is 18! ahh well, nvm... i guess she's pretty stubborn... but i have no choice. she is like wad? the only companion i have at home? besides, she's a nice person. jus dun get her started on her opinions and u'll go fine! haha... enough said abt that...

how nice... she's the one tt he never took for granted... fine.. i shan't comment anymore on tt... he'll redeem himself sooner or later. yes, he better come and do tt..

do u have any idea how difficult it is to even spend like, half an hour with GOD???!?!?!? WHY CAN'T U PEOPLE GET THE DRIFT? I'M PRAYING!!! ARRRRGGHHH!!!

2005-01-25T13:34:00.000+08:00

i'm in a secret place, faraway from being found. where am i? haha! in sch! *covers mouth* opps...

haha, in emath class everyone started screamin, "orangefirefly! orangefirefly!" so how nice. everyone (that was listenin then) knws my blog add... so much for being secretive abt it...

hmmm... er... im bored? ya, he say wad come to sch n find me oso didn't... haha, made charmaine so happy oso (huh?) yeaha... she was suddenly going, "he's coming???" n all jumpy... but dun worry lar! chr not tt bad taste lor!!

haha, so now that ppl knw my add its possible tt they will visit. fine. i shall watch wad i say... GAELAN IS PAR-TORING (dating) IN REDHILL!! HAHAHAHAHA! okay, inside joke lar... i keep pissin him off say he see girlfren when he's seein cousin lor... then after tt, kelly still filmed me and ollie (she wasn't talkin tho) and i declared tt piece of gossip to the phone! too baaad kelly deleted it le... *sigh* ahh well!! *grin* okay, big sorrys to gaelan, my dearest great grand father!!!

2005-01-23T11:42:00.000+08:00

my love, my life, my everything...

to u guys out there! it's barry white! yeah... im currently looking for the song... if any of u guys so happen to have it, gimme! gimme!

i finished <> season 2! hahahahahha! so.. im waitin for heaven to drop season three! aiyah... ask tt channel 5 to show it again lar! sheesh... i wanna waaaatchh...

church rox lar! i love the ppl there! they r SOOO fun! i love them alll!!! dun worry fakie, i still love ya! hahahaha! okay, i might as well say this lar... fakie is the guy tt i like! so... u guys can put the pieces together lar!!! *grin*

ok... so... tt's about it!! buuuaaiii!

2005-01-21T18:05:00.000+08:00

Love is like pi; natural, irrational but very important

haha, its the hols for meee! nth to do lar... i jus slack lor...

2005-01-20T21:21:00.000+08:00

it's been, nine days, eight hours, forty minutes, ten seconds, since you called. i've been, so crazy i was jus abt taking our picture, out of the wall...

ok, so MAYBE it's only 24 hrs since we last talked. but i AM going crazy! cos the whole afternoon i've been trying to talk to him, and he JUST DIDNT REPLY!!!

ARGHHH! no, im not gonna say tt he's playig with me, cos i knw he isn't (HE BETTER NOT BE)... yeah... i dunno lar!

im jus being lame... i guess that its probably the fact that he suddenly said tt maybe we aint meant to be tt disturbed me a little. yes, i havn't been tryin to think abt it... but.. *look away*

haha, met this sec 1 girl called wei xin! haha, in fact, looi wei xin! so to that lou wei xin out there, a girl suddenly appeared! yeah!

listenin to "dearest". YES. by ayumi. thats like, one of the millions of songs that is nice lar...

2005-01-19T20:56:00.000+08:00

suffering from depression, oppression and infession (infection)

oh nth, i jus wanna say tt... will explain tmr anw...

2005-01-16T13:29:00.000+08:00

If you only look
You will never get it

If you only look
It will never be yours

haha... song from ayumi... first song in her latest album "my Story"... hey! i really like her songs ok?? leave me be!

Sat serv was fun.. well... half the fun was bcos he was there lar... how he thinks of me, i haave no idea.. how much he misses me (if he ever did), i dunno.... how he likes me, im doubtful... but i leave it ALL to GOD!! *beam*

Yay! so now miki is comin to chc every saturday! ahahaha! i kinda like livin overseas now... the tot of it is nice... today miki had her new tv set moved in. she added new channels to scv... that means we have it too... means... ANIMAX!!! HAHA!!! woooohaaa! *victory dance*

haha... dun care abt my fakie lar!! muahahaha! oh ya, stuff abt my blog... i will try to add taggie ok??? ya... and no subject to write... soo baddd.... ahh well... who cares...

Hey!

2005-01-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

jus wanna say hi...

am listenin to ayumi hamasaki's "My story"... some of the songs are nice (like "About you", and "my name's WOMAN") and the rest plain suck...

death can't separate true love. it only delays.

2005-01-14T17:19:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA!!!! im online! tts cos i was sick again! haha, to u ppl... i was sick thruout the week lar.. jus tt no one noticed... ah well... no one notices me... as usual *big smile*

this week is MAJOR screw up week. i dunno wad made me say that... well... i do.. n im still in shock (if not traumatised) by wad happened on tuesday night.. one of my closest people tried to threaten me. he (as a general term) threatened me to do something, or he will slice my fingers off.. he was grabbing the scissors and was coming towards me, when i screamed out of defense, "What are you doin? You nutz??" He stood there, and i knew i overdid it. He lost it and was like pointing the stupid scissors (which is, btw, very rusty) at me.

all the time i was sittin on the bed, speechless, tears ran everywhere... n all i was thinkin then was, "my __________ (its censored, so dun bother tryin to figure out the blank) tried to kill me... he (still a general term) nearly stabbed me..." i cant fight my tears. its only january.

im such the useless stupid girl. all i want is attention. i want someone to know that im not wad i try to be. i try to act carefree. i try to smile everytime sth happens, good or bad. but im weaker than i look. i m a desperate, attention seeker. yeah, so maybe i was loud stimes (or all the time) too bad u ppl. tts how i hide my inner pain and distortion from the stupid things i faced. jus LET ME BE WAD I WANNA BE!

all that while, while tryin to block out his words, all i can think abt is him (or i try to)... i regret tt. *slap head* y didnt i think of GOD??? argh! *yell loud* im scared. of everything now. im terrified. i dunno wad will god think of me. i knw GOD loves me. but do i love him back? i dun think so. i love him more than GOD... i do.. im scared of tt... i think abt him more than GOD. i want to be with him more than i want to be in heaven now (though back then i was beggin GOD once again, for the 89th time, to take me back to heaven)...

anw, back to the scene. aft tt i spent my days of this week being intimidated by him. he tells me things, all i can think is, "u dun need to worry about me" my life is all twisted around by his manipulations... now, bcos of him (a general term! a general term!), my life is restricted to the most meager means (MMM)... lets go list it out...

internet access on weekends (unless i had homework *evil smile*)
handphone strictly on the first level, not in my room
no sms convos anymore. not at nite, not in the afternoon. NO MORE!
no more frens calling. NO MORE!

hmm.. tts all i can think abt now... yup... this MMM treaty (not agreed on both sides) is due till the very last paper of my O' levels. and that means... 10 more months!! i was like, "wad the- %@#*@^" <-- censored. but ah well... jia you for me! as for him, i can always meet him up somehow... *smmile*

Oh, one more thing. y i kept emphasisin that "he" is a general term. dun wan u guys thinkin its my father. cos he roxxx like anything! yeah dad! i dun like to show it, but i love ya lotzz ok?? its really general term... ok??? n i dun wan u guys to go thnkin its my mom too (jus in case u guys have stupid theories...) i knw my mom's... loud, but i love her too! *smile* so...

SA-YO-NA-RA! hope u guys like my new blog layout!! ... as if anyone reads it now... i still needa do stuff here n there... so... yeah!

Fate brings couples together. Time pulls them apart. But if fate (and God) meant it, they can find each other in the end...

2005-01-11T17:09:00.000+08:00

many things i pondered about. one of them is the fact tt my fren advised me to giv him up.. cos truth is that we r different ppl in diff worlds... n he doesn't think the combination is good (or so i rmbed...), i stimes feel my fren made a point... cos there R times when i feel so far from him... n tt was sth i cldnt explain at all... ahh well anw, i leave it to god so lets stop on that subbie...

choir is getting really baad... dun wanna explain anymore...

hm... homeworks starting to put pressure on me... arghh... i SO want this o's to end!! let it be dec now!!! arghhH!!! i look forward to the end!! theres like a whole buncha stuff i wanna do aft my o's!! hmm... jia you to me lar!!!

i jus wanna lala... in the kitchen on the floor i'll be ur french maid...

2005-01-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

hahaha! i knw the lyrics r kinky lar... but ahh well.. i like the song... n to answer some stupid thoughts in u people minds... i m SO not thinkin of him when i listen to this song... but now we mentioned it... hmmm.... *grin* ah well...

new day... long time no blog... dun think its possible to continue much... aft all, im in sec 4 now... lotsa things i wanna do but oso cannot... arghh... dun care... when i finished my o's i go get lappie... then i can go blogg as n when i like!!!

also... after o's i think a buncha us r goin to.... JAPAN!!! yeahha!!!!!!!!! look out prongs!!! im comin to find ya! nah... maybe i wont.... i wanna go japan.... argh... hot springs... sakuras... *scream* nvm... maybe i shld study there! woooohhaaaa! yay! haha... for now... do well for my o's!!!

guess wad??? it rox bein the seniors!! hahaha! u get to be wild in front of the freshies! haha... yay! attention!! come to meee! ok, im lame...

yay... i miss him so much, now tt he's gone and grad... but he still comes back occasionally cos he's helpin the sec ones... erm... tts wad he told me lar... *grin* yay... awaitin for tue... so wad if he maybe still likes her?? i like whoever i like, he like whoever he like... u guys like whoever u like... which means... mind ur business! haha!

shucks.. forgot to tell u wad happened on new year's eve

2005-01-02T11:52:00.000+08:00

let see.. tried to trade in my N7650 for a N6600... but in vain. Y? cos my 7650 is not a local product! who stupidly cares abt local products?? they r ALL frm nokia!! so im stuck with this phone for a while longer...

31st dec was nth much... 3 hours of tuition for the upcomin a maths test on 3rd Jan (TOMORROW!!) yeaha, u do well, good for u! not, drop a math! arghh... half of me want them to scare us for fun's sake... the other half wants to prove to me tt i can do well in a math...

countdown went by jus like tt! i was teachin my neighbour final fantasy when the people outside decide to blast dance music... (my neighbourhood has countdown parties every year) we were like, "finally, good dance music..." then we realised its midnight... so we stopped the games n went out to the little dance floor...

I was drunk that night... not with booze n liqour! i was dancin my life out! as if i can never see tomorrow's sun or sth... i danced for quite some time... tho logically speakin, it shld be only like 1/2 hour... n i want more! but... party poopers... the neighbour will start complaining, so the music stopped at one in the mornin... aawwwwww boring lives they have larrr...

i wanna dance... im addicted to it..

School's startin... Hooray!!!

2005-01-01T22:34:00.000+08:00

haha... its the year 2005! sth tells me its gonna be different! i dunno, gut feeling.. but in this year... i might be busier, plus my mom's "internet access only on weekends" rule is back again, with FULL force!! arghh... so u guys wont see me bloggin so often.. its ok, i still dun like bloggin...

lotsa stuff i wanna do, but first i gta prove to my mom that i can juggel btwn my studies n stuff... so tt have to be another few mths... sheesh...

arghhhhh!!!!!! my homework is not done!! cya!

6 mths... wads holdin me so long?

2004-12-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

heey! its the 29th of dec!! my special day always happen on the 29th... besides, today marks the 6th month since i decide to be stubborn n hold on to him! hmmm... after 18 days u guys must've been shocked to hear tt lil fickle me still likes him. well, i DO admit.. i think the feeling may not be there anymre... but... i kept thinkin abt him.. so.. ah well...

nth much leh.. no one picked me up at the airpotty... *sniff*

arghhh... the new timetable for nxt year is shooo idiot!! baad teachers, baad timetable... arghhh... i better get good results to compensate for all this!!

I've just realised...

2004-12-27T13:59:00.000+08:00

its been a month since i started bloggin!! haha, its ok lar, sth to do to waste time actually..

well, i wasnt online yesterday so... HAPPY BELATED BOXIN DAY!! haha! taiwan not exactly celebrate xmas... so my xmas was anything BUT xmassy! *sigh* but i went shoppin (unexpectedly), n i bought sth like kyo artbook! haha! but those as in u can colour like a colourin book or wad, but jus sth tt u can admire *drool over hotaru*

i still wan hotaru plushie!!! not from sailormoon!!! samurai deeper kyo larr!

oh ya, to those ppl expectin me to buy things for u, don't. i dun like givin presents, n i dun mind if ppl dun giv me...i mean... i really dunno wad to giv.. n actually, my motive is plainly to come n read comics at S$0.40 a book! who knws tt i eventually fell in love with <> n decide to look for anything tt got kyo in it.. haiz.. im really sorry lar.. i dunno wad kinda pressies to giv... n im comin back tmr... so... too baad!!!!!!!!! haha, sorry fakie! no pressies, i owe u one ok???

my xmas is anything BUT christmassy!!!

2004-12-25T21:58:00.001+08:00

i want hotaru plushie for xmas!!! from samurai deeper kyo, not sailormoon! *diao look* or else... comics!! like... a WHOLE SET of Blackcat!! haha!!

tts all i wanna say...merry xmas!!!!

my xmas is anything BUT christmassy!!!

2004-12-25T21:58:00.000+08:00

i want a hotaru plushie for xmas!!!!! hotaru from samurai deeper kyo! not sailormoon! *diao look* or comics... a WHOLE SET of Blackcat!!!! *grin*

haha... jus wanna say tt... merry christmas to ya all!!